just take me out back already and shoot me

[pincheericka]

i am confused
i have not had any doubts about him...not in so long...and who would of thought that last night would of been the night that one popped into my head. We went to the drive in and had a good time...we hung out the whole day...i took him to the doctors and i even went into the lil roOm with him...We went shopping for his nephew...we had a blast...but when we got to his house we were so poOped and layed down to sleep...and i was facing the wall...and i started to cry...of course i didnt let him see...i dont know where the tears came from...i pretended i was asleep...so he couldnt ask questions...but my heart was hurting...i dont know why i am like this...i need sumone to just smack it out of me! ...he is my boy...he is there for me...he does everything for me...but i still dont know why i cant get over our past...i dont know why its still there stabbing me in my fucking heart...what can i do? i love him...i really do...more than anything...and thats why it hurts so bad...i'm just a coward...and i'm scared