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GRRR
i'm so irritated right now. everything is going wrong. and everybody's making me re-think my life and my actions...etc...etc...
first of all, i've never had so many ppl hate me all at once. surprisingly, i haven't had this situation occur before.
secondly, why do all these random friends complain that i'm not around. and want to be close best buddies...?
i just can't get it right. apparently, ....oh wait, i got it!!!!!!!!!!!!
the ppl who hate me, are ppl who have hung out w/ me, and realize i'm a bad person.
the ppl who want to hang out w/ me more, are ppl who don't know me enough to understand that i'm mean/manipulative/selfish/etc.
ok...well, all i can say is that it's tiring and frustrating to piss off people.
alright...moving on..
haven't updated recently...been busy w/...pissing people off. i've been working at the restauraunt, it's been good. i trained the new girl today and realized how much i know about the restaurant. I had a vacation w/ my family in San Diego this past weekend. Went swimming/spa-ing, looked at houses, had brunch, went to balboa park...etc....going back to SD to get my motorcycle license. Rode on elijah's bike this past weekend, it was fun...the first 4 seconds i'm on, he pops a wheelie ...jeez, scary. going 100mph on the freeway was scary. it's really fun and exciting tho, and i'm looking forward to my license.
what else has been a burden?
summer school started...ivc:anthropology. bad times...boring class!
i'm sooo frustrated right now, i can't even pinpoint it...oh wait, i can.
this last few days, i stormed out and cut ties w/ andrew, then VERY unexpectedly my guy friend wants a "relationship". my head is going to explode w/ stupid guy drama.
um, i went somewhere fun today.........i went to a coffee house and read. then over my shoulder, i overheard this guy talking about his college studies. he was a communications AND poli sci major@!!!!!! whoaaa! that's me! i wanted to talk to him, ask him about his job and such, but he left. interesting....i had this really good italian soda too!
am i living in a different world? why do people tell me what things i should do...but i completely disagree? chahi said, call people up to hang out....but i wanna NOT call ppl and stay to myself because i'm moving away, and am not good at maintaining a relationship, even a friendly one. my mentality is that i'm not good at it, so i shouldn't get invovled in too many. wwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......................
at this moment...it feels like life is just about hurting other people, or being hurt by others.
and with that 'happy' thought, i'll go drown in my worries.
jesy-kaka
p.s. you're all bastards
i'm so irritated right now. everything is going wrong. and everybody's making me re-think my life and my actions...etc...etc...
first of all, i've never had so many ppl hate me all at once. surprisingly, i haven't had this situation occur before.
secondly, why do all these random friends complain that i'm not around. and want to be close best buddies...?
i just can't get it right. apparently, ....oh wait, i got it!!!!!!!!!!!!
the ppl who hate me, are ppl who have hung out w/ me, and realize i'm a bad person.
the ppl who want to hang out w/ me more, are ppl who don't know me enough to understand that i'm mean/manipulative/selfish/etc.
ok...well, all i can say is that it's tiring and frustrating to piss off people.
alright...moving on..
haven't updated recently...been busy w/...pissing people off. i've been working at the restauraunt, it's been good. i trained the new girl today and realized how much i know about the restaurant. I had a vacation w/ my family in San Diego this past weekend. Went swimming/spa-ing, looked at houses, had brunch, went to balboa park...etc....going back to SD to get my motorcycle license. Rode on elijah's bike this past weekend, it was fun...the first 4 seconds i'm on, he pops a wheelie ...jeez, scary. going 100mph on the freeway was scary. it's really fun and exciting tho, and i'm looking forward to my license.
what else has been a burden?
summer school started...ivc:anthropology. bad times...boring class!
i'm sooo frustrated right now, i can't even pinpoint it...oh wait, i can.
this last few days, i stormed out and cut ties w/ andrew, then VERY unexpectedly my guy friend wants a "relationship". my head is going to explode w/ stupid guy drama.
um, i went somewhere fun today.........i went to a coffee house and read. then over my shoulder, i overheard this guy talking about his college studies. he was a communications AND poli sci major@!!!!!! whoaaa! that's me! i wanted to talk to him, ask him about his job and such, but he left. interesting....i had this really good italian soda too!
am i living in a different world? why do people tell me what things i should do...but i completely disagree? chahi said, call people up to hang out....but i wanna NOT call ppl and stay to myself because i'm moving away, and am not good at maintaining a relationship, even a friendly one. my mentality is that i'm not good at it, so i shouldn't get invovled in too many. wwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......................
at this moment...it feels like life is just about hurting other people, or being hurt by others.
and with that 'happy' thought, i'll go drown in my worries.
jesy-kaka
p.s. you're all bastards