Damn it
I wish I could say I didn't feel.
I'm all on edge and upset with no reason to be.
When I read what Sam sent you I started to cry. Explanation? Fuck if I know.
The thought of you going back to someone who turns you into someone else than who I know now. Makes me sick, my heart aches.
The beautiful woman who stands before me, is wonderfully flawed, cracked, strong and hopeful. Dedicated, loving, smart, hilarious, a fighter with a soft spot for living breathing things. A magnificent catastrophe with the best intentions but not always the best of luck.
Anywho, Obviously I may have feelings for you and that could be a factor to my emotions, but honestly I don't believe that is one sided. I see you for everything you are and want to be, I know you better than most people and it's kind of frightening. No matter that business, I'd rather have you meet some new chick then go back to being controlled and molded.
I'm aware we're friends, and will always just be friends, but that doesn't mean I don't think we could be amazing if ever given the chance. But I've accepted that will never happen, I'm not what you want.
But she is not what you deserve, you deserve someone who will build you up, not tear you down. Someone who will be understanding and patient with every lovely piece of you.
I can't tell you what to decide but I know that depending, everything will change, & that scares me. I want nothing but for you to be completely content and genuinely happy, so I will support whatever decision you make, because it's your life & I love you.
I just needed to let that out.
I'm all on edge and upset with no reason to be.
When I read what Sam sent you I started to cry. Explanation? Fuck if I know.
The thought of you going back to someone who turns you into someone else than who I know now. Makes me sick, my heart aches.
The beautiful woman who stands before me, is wonderfully flawed, cracked, strong and hopeful. Dedicated, loving, smart, hilarious, a fighter with a soft spot for living breathing things. A magnificent catastrophe with the best intentions but not always the best of luck.
Anywho, Obviously I may have feelings for you and that could be a factor to my emotions, but honestly I don't believe that is one sided. I see you for everything you are and want to be, I know you better than most people and it's kind of frightening. No matter that business, I'd rather have you meet some new chick then go back to being controlled and molded.
I'm aware we're friends, and will always just be friends, but that doesn't mean I don't think we could be amazing if ever given the chance. But I've accepted that will never happen, I'm not what you want.
But she is not what you deserve, you deserve someone who will build you up, not tear you down. Someone who will be understanding and patient with every lovely piece of you.
I can't tell you what to decide but I know that depending, everything will change, & that scares me. I want nothing but for you to be completely content and genuinely happy, so I will support whatever decision you make, because it's your life & I love you.
I just needed to let that out.