Everything changes...within the hour, I swear.
So since my LAST entry.
I currently no longer have a GF.
I broke up with her, but she likes to say it was "mutual"
Then 2 days later I saw a cute girl, wrote something about it on the evil myspace...
And she showed her jealousy.
We drank monday...
A lot of WINE.
She says she wants me back, she doesn't like the thought of me liking someone else and going and getting in a relationship with them.
When we were together it was an open relationship. She was ok with me FUCKING other people, but not becoming emotionally attached.
I said no. I was NEVER going back to the way I felt when her and I were dating, because I want someone to be with ME and ONLY me.
She then says it would be different this time, I laughed my drunk ass in her face.
I was good though, kept my ground and didn't give in. For that I'm proud.
But I haven't left since then.
Tuesday she had a hecka bad fever, wednesday morning she wakes up with her whole left foot and calf 3 times its normal size...
Thursday morning at 1am, emergency room visit.
Been playing nurse since then.
Friday she proceeds to text my EX FIANCE...and ask to be FRIENDS...WTF?!
Then she asks me, "Would it be ok if Ashley came over and we all hung out?"
FUCK NO.
I love ashley. I don't want to be with her for MANY reasons that are currently being worked on I guess. But I am not going to hang out with HER and Eliza who I currently like and want to try and make things work with. I would NEVER want to torture Ashley like that.
Shes ok with it because she just wants to spend time with me.
Sometimes I wonder what Eliza has in store for this "friendship" because well I know how she is.
the whole text friendship lasted about 6 hours and finally died down. I don't know where it will go from now but whatever.
Today...7 HOURS in the ER. Because Elizas foot is absolutely NO better. They drugged her with pain meds, and put in an IV for antibiotics...and we have to GO back TOMORROW. *sigh* Fuck staph infection and FUCK willamette falls hospital for being so FUCKING INCOMPETENT.
After all that everything was ok...Until her ex wife texted me.
Hmm,
Karma.
We started talking about some life things that are going on in her life and found out she might come out to visit...apparently she wants to possibly stay with me.
Take this into account.
Elizas EX wife and I, have been friends for a year and a 1/2...I knew her WAY before Eliza and we have been really FUCKING good friends even with all the um...well me fucking her ex wife and all.
Back to the beginning though, BEFORE I was with ashley.
When I first met Kalia(MJ) I was single, and I thought she was fucking hot...I would talk to her so I could get to know her and possibly get the guts to ask her out, then I found out she was married. Scratch that Idea.
So friendship bloomed.
I later started dating Ashley and we just became better friends.
She broke up with Eliza, part of me was like, OH FUCK. Maybe just maybe...but I loved Ashley and just knew it wouldn't be a good idea.
So we continued the friendship.
Then the whole um...me cheating on ashley with eliza in june etc happened. I thought I had RUINED our friendship, didn't happen. (makes me wonder if this girl has alterior evil motives towards me, but I wouldn't put it past her, shes a pisces. And I wouldn't blame her)
Well tonight she texted me and we talked and she sent me a pic of her new hair, its a mohawk, and I said something along the lines of I have emo hair these days. She asked for a pic...I sent it.
She replied with "hottness" I laughed and responded with, "Oh, haha yea right"
Wrong response on my part...She responded with, "Hunny please, I've been attracted to you since I met you"
I was shocked...but Eliza asked what she said, I dont lie to Eliza so I told her.
She got pissed...as the conversation went on I told MJ that I had felt the same way but now things are so fucked up. And I explained exactly what I just told you...I liked her and then and then and then and I ended it with "those were signs you and I were never going to happen, but I got one of the best friends out of it, and I'm ok with that"
She replied, "Me too babe and if anything were to happen so be it. You are one of my best friends too"
I asked her what she meant but, "if anything were to happen"
She said, "yea in the future"
I just replied with, "Oh."
I'm not going to fuck around with Elizas ex wife.
That would just be fucking rediculous.
I would never do that to Eliza...no matter how fucked up she thinks I am.
And NOW Ashley is texting me saying that we can't be friends at all.
Because she's in love with me and no matter who I'm with she will be tortured because she will always want more.
Fuck you.
I'm going to bed now. While Eliza is PISSED OFF at me...and Ashley can't even be my friend.
Fuck The World.
I should just go back to boys...They don't care about a damn thing.
:(
Fuck off.
I currently no longer have a GF.
I broke up with her, but she likes to say it was "mutual"
Then 2 days later I saw a cute girl, wrote something about it on the evil myspace...
And she showed her jealousy.
We drank monday...
A lot of WINE.
She says she wants me back, she doesn't like the thought of me liking someone else and going and getting in a relationship with them.
When we were together it was an open relationship. She was ok with me FUCKING other people, but not becoming emotionally attached.
I said no. I was NEVER going back to the way I felt when her and I were dating, because I want someone to be with ME and ONLY me.
She then says it would be different this time, I laughed my drunk ass in her face.
I was good though, kept my ground and didn't give in. For that I'm proud.
But I haven't left since then.
Tuesday she had a hecka bad fever, wednesday morning she wakes up with her whole left foot and calf 3 times its normal size...
Thursday morning at 1am, emergency room visit.
Been playing nurse since then.
Friday she proceeds to text my EX FIANCE...and ask to be FRIENDS...WTF?!
Then she asks me, "Would it be ok if Ashley came over and we all hung out?"
FUCK NO.
I love ashley. I don't want to be with her for MANY reasons that are currently being worked on I guess. But I am not going to hang out with HER and Eliza who I currently like and want to try and make things work with. I would NEVER want to torture Ashley like that.
Shes ok with it because she just wants to spend time with me.
Sometimes I wonder what Eliza has in store for this "friendship" because well I know how she is.
the whole text friendship lasted about 6 hours and finally died down. I don't know where it will go from now but whatever.
Today...7 HOURS in the ER. Because Elizas foot is absolutely NO better. They drugged her with pain meds, and put in an IV for antibiotics...and we have to GO back TOMORROW. *sigh* Fuck staph infection and FUCK willamette falls hospital for being so FUCKING INCOMPETENT.
After all that everything was ok...Until her ex wife texted me.
Hmm,
Karma.
We started talking about some life things that are going on in her life and found out she might come out to visit...apparently she wants to possibly stay with me.
Take this into account.
Elizas EX wife and I, have been friends for a year and a 1/2...I knew her WAY before Eliza and we have been really FUCKING good friends even with all the um...well me fucking her ex wife and all.
Back to the beginning though, BEFORE I was with ashley.
When I first met Kalia(MJ) I was single, and I thought she was fucking hot...I would talk to her so I could get to know her and possibly get the guts to ask her out, then I found out she was married. Scratch that Idea.
So friendship bloomed.
I later started dating Ashley and we just became better friends.
She broke up with Eliza, part of me was like, OH FUCK. Maybe just maybe...but I loved Ashley and just knew it wouldn't be a good idea.
So we continued the friendship.
Then the whole um...me cheating on ashley with eliza in june etc happened. I thought I had RUINED our friendship, didn't happen. (makes me wonder if this girl has alterior evil motives towards me, but I wouldn't put it past her, shes a pisces. And I wouldn't blame her)
Well tonight she texted me and we talked and she sent me a pic of her new hair, its a mohawk, and I said something along the lines of I have emo hair these days. She asked for a pic...I sent it.
She replied with "hottness" I laughed and responded with, "Oh, haha yea right"
Wrong response on my part...She responded with, "Hunny please, I've been attracted to you since I met you"
I was shocked...but Eliza asked what she said, I dont lie to Eliza so I told her.
She got pissed...as the conversation went on I told MJ that I had felt the same way but now things are so fucked up. And I explained exactly what I just told you...I liked her and then and then and then and I ended it with "those were signs you and I were never going to happen, but I got one of the best friends out of it, and I'm ok with that"
She replied, "Me too babe and if anything were to happen so be it. You are one of my best friends too"
I asked her what she meant but, "if anything were to happen"
She said, "yea in the future"
I just replied with, "Oh."
I'm not going to fuck around with Elizas ex wife.
That would just be fucking rediculous.
I would never do that to Eliza...no matter how fucked up she thinks I am.
And NOW Ashley is texting me saying that we can't be friends at all.
Because she's in love with me and no matter who I'm with she will be tortured because she will always want more.
Fuck you.
I'm going to bed now. While Eliza is PISSED OFF at me...and Ashley can't even be my friend.
Fuck The World.
I should just go back to boys...They don't care about a damn thing.
:(
Fuck off.