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[pinacolada300]

i know i just wrote in here, but after i did thatt, i went and read everyone else's entries and comments, and now. im super depressed. i wanna call someone SOOOOO bad. but i don't know who. and it wouldnt really be much of a conversation. I think im gonna need therapy. well no, not really, but im soo depressed. I hate how i live so far away from everyone. Its not like i can just walk to a friends house just for the hell of it. I can't bump into people randomly in my neighbourhood. I don't live near anyone. I live sortof close to 2 friends, but its not super close. I wish i lived somewhere else. But at the same time i dont. I really feel like crying my eyes out, but i dont think i have any tears left inside of me. I whenever i think about, which is basically every night. I've been crying myself to sleep since grad, which really hasn't been that long, but im not usually one to do this. most of the time i can just get over it and move on with my life. But for this, i dont think i can. At least not for a really long time. I think we need to all have a reunion during the summer. Yeah, i know its not like its gonna have been that long since we last saw each other. Not like those 25 year reunions or w/e, but i miss everyone so much. Im gonna see my friends lots this summer, since im not doing muchh, but its still not the same. I would wake up early every morning, do my homework, or just ANYTHING that would make it be like it was before. I miss it so much. Oh man. i am gonna cry now. I just really wanna see EVERYONE again. even if i didnt talk to them, or just didnt really like them all that muchh, just to see their faces would make me happy. what would make me happiest though, would be to see EVERYONE. i wanna go back. i know usually i can't wait for the school year to be over. I cant wait for summer. But this year, its different. I want it back. What i had. And also what i didnt have. It was such a happy time. I could be having the worst of times, but when i got to school, i could always count on someone to cheer me up, and make me feel so much better. They'd make me forget what was bringing me down. Now they're gone, and i don't know what im gonna do. CRY i guess.

oh man. i need a hug now. REALLY badly. ='((