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man i feel bad thinkin about this sometimes...haha i cant really tell no one cuz wtf its none of their business..so i go online? yes cuz no one reads this shit anyways.
so...wat am i? wtf. i kno wat my cousin says theyre either dogs or snakes...the dog like to play around but they mean no harm....snakes are just out to hurt. well ya hes a dog. you know u call the others beautiful and sexy and u call me nothing. u make an effort to kick it with them or at least say you do...wat do i get. am i just here for now till u find someone better. i kno u been lookin...and thats wat hurts. u kno i love u and that y i bug u but maybe i shouldnt do that anymore...out of love?? sure. how the fuck else are u gonna kno. maybe im just frustrated cuz finals are comin...or maybe cuz my ugly ass haircut has got me feelin all whacked out. but listen here journal..with the bad there is good...and no matter how frustrated i get at times...i think at all the guys i coulda been with or have been with and they way outta the league man. max?? no im different with him wen i was with him i "feel" like myself but im not. im too quiet and i dont speak up for myself and i feel bad for not hanging out with him everytime i actually go out..hes the reason im not as close with my friends as i once was. eric was cool. rain?? ahah naaa big doubt it....he seems like too forgiving or i dunno its just not there....but with the one right now........ it aint perfect ill tell u that much from what i said before but i dont feel pressured i dont feel like i HAVE to hang with him i can talk to other people and im still friends with my friends...and i can be myself...ugly or nice , whiney or quiet, annoying or not...it just is. and thats what i looooove about this so far. and i wouldnt trade it for the world. we just young i guess and still on the lookout whther conciously or not...=( o well wat can i do....i aint gonna force nothin...its not even worth speakin...i just gotta vent somehow right?
so...wat am i? wtf. i kno wat my cousin says theyre either dogs or snakes...the dog like to play around but they mean no harm....snakes are just out to hurt. well ya hes a dog. you know u call the others beautiful and sexy and u call me nothing. u make an effort to kick it with them or at least say you do...wat do i get. am i just here for now till u find someone better. i kno u been lookin...and thats wat hurts. u kno i love u and that y i bug u but maybe i shouldnt do that anymore...out of love?? sure. how the fuck else are u gonna kno. maybe im just frustrated cuz finals are comin...or maybe cuz my ugly ass haircut has got me feelin all whacked out. but listen here journal..with the bad there is good...and no matter how frustrated i get at times...i think at all the guys i coulda been with or have been with and they way outta the league man. max?? no im different with him wen i was with him i "feel" like myself but im not. im too quiet and i dont speak up for myself and i feel bad for not hanging out with him everytime i actually go out..hes the reason im not as close with my friends as i once was. eric was cool. rain?? ahah naaa big doubt it....he seems like too forgiving or i dunno its just not there....but with the one right now........ it aint perfect ill tell u that much from what i said before but i dont feel pressured i dont feel like i HAVE to hang with him i can talk to other people and im still friends with my friends...and i can be myself...ugly or nice , whiney or quiet, annoying or not...it just is. and thats what i looooove about this so far. and i wouldnt trade it for the world. we just young i guess and still on the lookout whther conciously or not...=( o well wat can i do....i aint gonna force nothin...its not even worth speakin...i just gotta vent somehow right?