random thoughts
I definitely need to stop worrying so much about other people and doing good deeds for them and start being a little selfish. I can't go out of my way to be an outstanding friend and co-worker because then I'll just end up disappointed; I will probably place expectations on other people to return the generosity. And I can't do that. I need to either lead by example and give without expecting or I need to just worry about me a majority of the time and help friends out but make sure it doesn't become a burden. Meaning, I will go out of my way when asked, but I need not to offer to go out of my way and inconvenience myself for people. I have a very bad habit of doing this.
Anywho, I have lost 16 pounds which is perfectly fabulous but I am still a fat, fat, fat ass. And I have lost it via ketosis which means I am starving myself and I totally didn't want to do it that way. But it's the only thing that gets results. :/ Once I get down to like 140, I will start working out about three times a week and eating a tiny bit more protein each day. Hopefully this will work considering I will probably plateau around that weight. Then again, my girl Rachel starved herself after her break up and she lost 20 pounds and still eats once a day to maintain her new skinny self. But I do want to be healthy so I don't want to starve forever. Yo-yo dieting is miserable.
Work is going to suck since Gator Nationals drag racing and such started yesterday. We'll be slammed with red necks and non-tippers all weekend lol. But I only have to endure like four more months or so because Patrick and I will be buying a house! We're going to move to Clearwater most likely and purchase a home! I am thrilled. He is getting a boat and truck, too, and I stress that he's going to blow through all of his money and end up broke and in a hole. So I really hope he wises up and doesn't do anything stupid. But we're going to be homeowners before we're 30 years old so I am so excited about that. I can transfer to the BJ's there at first just to secure a job and then look into other opportunities down in Clearwater. Eek! I am excited to stop paying rent and start the hard project of building a home! I am excited to be living on the boat every weekend and having a marine lifestyle! Even though boat just means Bust Out Another Thousand, I think that our jobs will help take care of it and keep us out of harms way. ::prays::
Wish me luck with everything. We got some big responsibilities ahead of us but I am certain that with some research and hard work we can make miracles. Peace!
McL
rest in peace
Mercedes Stephenson
i wish you were here
Anywho, I have lost 16 pounds which is perfectly fabulous but I am still a fat, fat, fat ass. And I have lost it via ketosis which means I am starving myself and I totally didn't want to do it that way. But it's the only thing that gets results. :/ Once I get down to like 140, I will start working out about three times a week and eating a tiny bit more protein each day. Hopefully this will work considering I will probably plateau around that weight. Then again, my girl Rachel starved herself after her break up and she lost 20 pounds and still eats once a day to maintain her new skinny self. But I do want to be healthy so I don't want to starve forever. Yo-yo dieting is miserable.
Work is going to suck since Gator Nationals drag racing and such started yesterday. We'll be slammed with red necks and non-tippers all weekend lol. But I only have to endure like four more months or so because Patrick and I will be buying a house! We're going to move to Clearwater most likely and purchase a home! I am thrilled. He is getting a boat and truck, too, and I stress that he's going to blow through all of his money and end up broke and in a hole. So I really hope he wises up and doesn't do anything stupid. But we're going to be homeowners before we're 30 years old so I am so excited about that. I can transfer to the BJ's there at first just to secure a job and then look into other opportunities down in Clearwater. Eek! I am excited to stop paying rent and start the hard project of building a home! I am excited to be living on the boat every weekend and having a marine lifestyle! Even though boat just means Bust Out Another Thousand, I think that our jobs will help take care of it and keep us out of harms way. ::prays::
Wish me luck with everything. We got some big responsibilities ahead of us but I am certain that with some research and hard work we can make miracles. Peace!
McL
rest in peace
Mercedes Stephenson
i wish you were here