What the FUCK?

[pimpschle]

It is a pretty maddening and heartbreaking thing to find out that people that you thought were your friends have been talking shit about you to mutual friends for quite some time. Especially when the shit they are talking isn't even true. It really makes a person think twice about who they want to have around them as friends. I guess more than anything my feelings are so hurt I don't even know how to handle it. I've been walking around being nice to these people completely oblivious to everything. Now I am obsessing over what I could have possibly done to make them think what they think. And then I realize, you know what, this is not an issue of what I did, because I did nothing with bad intentions. This is an issue of insecurities on their part and my blind trust in people. I am angry that the rumor got started in the first place, and I am even angrier that my friends would believe it and avoid me because of it.

I know I need to learn to stop writing furious entries, but this is just how I cope. I mean seriously... how could I have been naive enough to think these people were my friends? Fuck.