Sometimes I just wanna kill myself . . .
I am SO sick of everything. No one understands me. Rebecca IMed me earlier and was telling me that I called her a fucking whore and all this shit the last day of school. I never sais anything about her. The stuff that I said was about Nikki ONLY. Jen might have said shit about her, but I didn't. Everyone just assum's things, and then when the times to discuss it they don't say anything but lies. I don't know why people do that. It is so irritating. Then I was talking to Scott this morning about why we never talk and see each other anymore, and I got extrememly upset and I just snapped at him. We are alright now. He is like the only person who does understand me. Thank god for that. I would have lost one of my BEST friends. I love him, I could never hate him, He has been there for me every single time something has happened and i really needed him to be. I dunno who but today I have been so upset. I can't stop crying. Everything is just comming on to me. I can't take it. I know that I do a lot of stupid shit that I shouldn't, but that doesn't explain why people need to lie to me. They don't understand how much it bothers me. I have never done anything to those people and yet they hav eto lie, and make up bullshit stories. (those people know who they are) I dunno. I wish that i could talk to Adam about it, but i just feel like he doesn't understand. He is a great person to talk to, don't get me wrong, but i just dont feel comfortable talking to him about this kind of stuff any more. Well I will chat later. (scott, or "those ppl" if u read this, leave a comment and let me kno what u think.)