long thoughts
I used to the the type of person that thought all the time and about everything. There was not a single thing that I did not analyze and scrutinize over. I came up with different scenarios over different situations and decisions that I was in the process of making. All the time my mind would be in a million different places. This took a lot of energy, energy that would normally be used to make facial expressions. People would often ask me what was wrong seeing is how my face was expressionless and stone salem. Which told them that some thing had to be wrong. I would reply ¨Oh nothing I am just thinking¨. I am just thinking. Sometimes if the person was interested the next question would be ¨thinking about what¨. Hua . If only at that particular moment I could grab one of the things that I was thinking about and talk about it then that would be cool. As time has gone on I have realized somethings about myself that I really did not want to admit or believe about myself. And the truth be told most of the time it was not the fact that I was thinking of a million things, I was thinking of the things that I did not want to admit to myself let alone say to anyone else. I am really good at starting things but not so good I seeing them trough. This has been evident in my school work these last couple of mounts. Never mind that fact that I am in another country or that I am trying to learn another language. I know for a fact that I could have done a lot better. I get really excited about something and when it gets hard I tend to loose interest. So I think of ways to change that and get nowhere. I was asked a while ago do I feel as if I have changed over this time that has passed. My only internal reply would have to be ¨I think I think less¨. I think that if , I think that maybe, no I think that one day. Or how about I just think too much and the best thing to do is live life and try to enjoy every minute of it and not think about every minute of it. So yeah I think I am done.
Over and out
Over and out