so much to say no one to say it to...
so..im not to sure whats been going on the last day or two..its all seemed to mix into this really faint blur...and maybe thats for the best because im not quite sure i could handle the reality of it all...i know that me and ness got into this really huge fight over nothing really..and after that everything just seemed to run together into this whole big ball of nothingness..if that even makes sense..guess that pretty much sums up my life without her..so after that i just had to leave the house...i couldnt stay here any longer...so i went over to jessicas and talked to her for a little while and then we went up to va to go to ihops and eat or so she could eat i just wanted to leave the state and they werent open so we came right back home..what kinda shit is that, that ihops isnt 24/7...anyway i spent the night with her and eneded up having to go to work at 11am which really sucked considering i didnt sleep a bit..just laid in bed and watched tv..well thought alot really..i cant even tell you what i was watching..and theres so many things i wanted to say..just yell out loud to the whole world and i knew i couldnt..i never say things at the right time..my full intentions are never really portrayed..they just seem to make things worse and more complicated..and even if i could of screamed everything i wanted to say at that moment it wouldnt have mattered bc the only person i wanted to say them to was the only person that was no longer here to listen to me...so i went home and got ready for work..went to work and left there at 2 and me and laura headed up to virgina to go to a concert..wish i could tell ya i had fun but honestly, i wanted to be anywhere but there...then we went ice skating..that was nice..took my mind off things for a while..and here i am... back to where i started..lol i dont even know what im trying to say..just rambling on about...nothing...someone please press fast forward...or rewind...anywhere but here..and now....broken hearts are for assholes..:(