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I am getting so sick of this uncertainty bullshit crap fucking aye wanna kill something now. You know me. I don't care what people think of me. Fuck them all. BUT GOD I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HER FEELINGS FOR ME ARE SO BADDDDD. It hurts to think about it. It sucks because I know she at least likes me. But of course haha stupid Nick, has fallen in love with her. Last time this happened, it led to months and months of pain. Nearly a year even. God why do I trust her so much. I don't trust anyone but her. Trust can not be bloody trusted. GAHHH. I am such a haha just loser. Yes, loser. What am I talking about. I know she doesn't love me. That would be too perfect. Ahhh that's how I have to decipher fact from fiction. Interesting. So basically, things are true if they are on a scale from horrible to good. Anything past good, is a lie. It all makes sense now. Okay so she likes me as a buddy. Makes sense. It's always just a buddy though. Also a close friend. Haha I'm always the girlfriend. Go ahead and tell me everything. Get real close to me. Let me fall in love with you. Just make sure you don't fall in love with me, heaven forbid we make Nick happy. Whatever this is all so stupid. I've said love/relationships/shit like this can not work at this age. I'm just a stereotypical retard that tells people to not care about things because it's pointless, and then here I am, caring about all this shit. Wooo I'm a failure.
ALL HAIL THE MIGHTY FUCKING ASS FAILURE NAMED NICOLAS FALCO ELIAS WHO HAS FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A GIRL THAT AVOIDS HIM WITH EVERY CHANCE SHE GETS, LEAVING HIM SO TERRIFIED TO EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE TO CALL HER, IN FEAR OF HEARING THE "Sorry Nick, I can't hang out today."
Yaayyyy I'm stupid.
w00t.
ALL HAIL THE MIGHTY FUCKING ASS FAILURE NAMED NICOLAS FALCO ELIAS WHO HAS FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A GIRL THAT AVOIDS HIM WITH EVERY CHANCE SHE GETS, LEAVING HIM SO TERRIFIED TO EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE TO CALL HER, IN FEAR OF HEARING THE "Sorry Nick, I can't hang out today."
Yaayyyy I'm stupid.
w00t.