Fuck It
ok so yeah lately i havent enjoyed anything let alone wanna do anything...like basketball i could give 2shits about...i really dont wanna play i dont care if i get my letter...softball blows our coach is an ass and "coaches" us like were 3 so yeah i dont wanna play city ne more...st marys is ok...because i get to see megan julie emmily and other people that i havent seen in a while...and me and Dean like never see eachother...its been like 2weeks...and its like i dunno i dont wanna loose him because i love him so much but like its kinda pointless when we never see eachother or when we try to hang out i hoe him out...its a wonder he hasnt juss been like fuck it and it all goes down hill :/ i hope that dosent happen...god why cant i juss keep my mouth shut when my mom tells me something...or just do shit without being told god im so fuckin stupid i hate my self