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Don't let yourself get so angry that you stop loving because one day you will wake up from that anger and the person you love won't be around anymore.
From so high above me, there's no telling just how hard you'll crash or which will be the straw that breaks your back. I'm sorry to put that on you. But when you fall, I'll be there to pick up the broken mess. I can't give your wings back if I am the one who caused your fall. Ask yourself if I am worth all of this, but please, don't tell me what the answer is. I can't bear to hear that from you. So, if you go, you need to know that I'll never forget you. When the ceramic breaks, I've lost you.
The things you thought you could forget come back to get you in the end. I try but find it hard to sleep. I try but I... Some can forgive, some can forget, but some ride things out until their enemies are dead. My mind is tired of the things it's seen. If I ever dream a small paragraph of words I'll write them down and burn them in your honor. I'll set this stage aflame, then I'll watch you die, burned at the stake for the things that you said that you were, but you never were. I'll never sleep right. Then I see your smile by my angel's eyes. I stabbed out your eyes for the things that you said that you saw but were never there. It's burned into my mind. I try but find it hard to sleep because your face is branded in my mind. And all my secrets that I keep prove that they'll never fade with time. My mind is tired of the things it's seen. If I ever dream a monochrome symphony I'll embrace it, for you are there with me and I'll never be the same. I'll set this stage aflame, then I'll watch you die, burned at the stake for the things that you said that you were, but you never were. I'll never sleep right. Then I see your smile by my angel's eyes. I stabbed out your eyes for the things that you said that you saw but were never there. It's burned into my mind. You can't... You can't be me. I'll set this stage aflame, then I'll watch you die, burned at the stake for the things that you said that you were, but you never were. I'll never sleep right. Then I see your smile by my angel's eyes. I stabbed out your eyes for the things that you said that you saw but were never there. It's burned into my mind. You stand so tall for someone so lost.
The sun sleeps and so does the mask that I wear in the light to hide my face. The world doesn't know who I am. The moon rises up, and with it, the trembling fear that has frozen my blood. I wish I could sleep with the sun, let its rays be the warmth I have missed for so long. Even if its fire engulfs me, at least I'll be warm... The air is so cold that I can't breathe, my last leaves falling at my feet. Am I awake or dreaming? Should I open my eyes or tear off the lids? Words cover the ground over which I speak. Fog rolls in and I can't see what's standing right in front of me. I'm blind but I feel you... I'm not alone. I can't stop. Get out of my mind. These aren't the lines that are taking your life: I try to, but can't help you. These times I know I'm wrong and you're right again, you're right again. I know... I know I'm gone. They rape your mind in search of bad memories to keep you in line. You're right again, rest is a chore when your dreams become harder than life. We're so far apart now. If distance makes the heart grow fond, then why am I losing you? This time, I know you're wrong. I miss your heart and the body it's in, but I can't help but feel like I'm losing you. When I come home, I know you'll be gone.
Asleep on the basement couch, no one knows that we are all alone. Let's keep this our secret. Sleep for a better day and dream for a better way. The sky's as bright as you make it. The sky's as dark as you feel. The sky's as bright as you make it, and the sky's as dark as your heart is beautiful.
Why should you take the blame? You chew up and swallow their accusations. You've choked on the king's poisoned fare. This is your reward for all you've done for me. I tried to protect you but you took the fall anyway. Why should I have to be put through this? It's killing me. It's a war between right and ridiculous. Someone will pay for this when we find the truth. It seems that things would all be fine if I could leave your world behind. I told you before that I'd eat a bullet for you. And, it seems to me, the lines we walk are parallel. Everything's gone to hell for all those involved. I know you want me out of this, to just give up, to stop, forget. I'm in this with you until all your problems are solved. Why should I have to be put through this? It's killing me. Our hearts are our hearts, she said. Crimson spreads the paint, then blackens as it dries. Light match and cauterize the can where it's torn. Force the drugs to bend the will. The cure was crushed as was the pill. The ribcage split wide, the heart begs the crowbar for more. So goodbye, I'll see you in paradise if one day I roll the dice and end up there with you. You died for life, you lost to win. A breath that ends what chokes begin. Leave the roses red and I'll make sure that violets stay blue. Why should I have to be put through this? It's killing me. Our hearts are our hearts, she said as she bled to save the one thing that lived only through her, and her heart begs the crowbar for more... The heart begs the crowbar for more. Pull the blindfold over me so I can't see you one last time before you leave. I would nail your feet to the floor if I thought that it would keep you here. I would drink the poison that stained your blood if by dying I could let you live. This is a day that I thought I'd never see. Six years can't prepare you for what a flash of cold steel takes away.
i love you baby, i really do...?
i think im too late....