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I have come to the conclusion that i am not meant to be happy. It doesn't matter what I do I'm not going to be happy. I lost my girlfriend because of some stupid shit and it doesn't matter what I do i can't get over it. Its really hard for me to find a girl that I think is worth dating. I spend almost a year waiting for her to move down here then when she does we don't even make it six months. I look back and for that year and a couple months I was actually happy. There was someone who actually cared about me. I know i have my friends but it just nice to be able to look into someone eyes and know that they really care. Now I have nobody. Not only that my dad has a drinking problem. I have no idea what i want to do with my life. And my two best friend live in orlando. I use to be able to go across the street and just hang out with them. Especially when I felt like this. But now theres nobody. I have been trying to make the best out of this situation but i'm tired of acting like everything is ok. I'm tired of people coming to me and asking for advice about relationships when i couldnt even make the one girl I really cared about happy. I can't sleep right. I just want to be happy. I just want my old life back. I don't really expect anyone to read this, but I just needed to get it out.