Life's a Bitch
I just want my life to go back to the way it was a month ago. I want to be able to call her and tell her about my problems. I just want to see her and hold her and be happy. I haven't been happy in almost a week. I haven't slept more than 3 hours a night in 4 days. Everything just doesn't seem right. It doesn't seem right to not have her in my life. I try not to think about it, but it is the only thing that runs through my mind. I can't get her off my mind. And she doesn't even seem to care how i feel. She goes from telling me she loves me to not even wanting to see me. She goes from saying she wants to be with me forever to "i think we need a break." Its driving me crazy. I feel so empty. Like there is no point to me being here. After a year and a half i have to go through this shit. And yet if she called me right now and asked for my help i would do it without even thinking. I would drop everyting to make sure she was happy. And if it ends up she is happier without me it will kill me but i will have to deal with it.