Some days are just bound to be..
I don't know what it is. It's odd how the mind remembers some dates that should be insignificant, but forgets others that you would think would be important. Such as the first time I flew a helicopter, or the first time I flew an apache. You know, instead I think I have a messed up head. I tend to remember only the things that hurt, or dates when something went horribly wrong. I guess it's so I take advantage of the good things in life when I can. Hell if you go by Buddhism, then we are all always suffering looking to achieve a state of ease and relaxation known as Kharma. I think this has become my life essentially. It's not that I hate it, or am entirely unhappy with it. It's just that it seems as if I'm in a state of numbness just trying to balance everything to make the world a better place for others as well as myself. For the love of God, can't people just stop fighting over stupid shit. How hard is it to agree to disagree. Stupid politicians. I hate this day in particular more than any day of the year.
I woke up today in a perfect mood. Seriously, I haven't had good dreams like I had last night in years. Then I put my watch on and caught wind of the date, and was all messed up from there. Hence I can't figure out why I just can't shake things that dwell that are so distant in the past for me that I shouldn't even remember it to begin with. It's the first November I haven't been able to forget about all this in 5 years. I wish I could leave myself for just this one night, and call it good. Come back in a couple weeks and be alright. I'm all about an 11 month year, so I think I'll take a step back in time to the Mayans. I'll even buy us all some time and add some years to the calander so the world doesn't end at 2012 for all you conspiracy theorists out there. Don't mind my spelling. I pretty much suck at it. I blame the army for that one. All those damn acronyms.
I woke up today in a perfect mood. Seriously, I haven't had good dreams like I had last night in years. Then I put my watch on and caught wind of the date, and was all messed up from there. Hence I can't figure out why I just can't shake things that dwell that are so distant in the past for me that I shouldn't even remember it to begin with. It's the first November I haven't been able to forget about all this in 5 years. I wish I could leave myself for just this one night, and call it good. Come back in a couple weeks and be alright. I'm all about an 11 month year, so I think I'll take a step back in time to the Mayans. I'll even buy us all some time and add some years to the calander so the world doesn't end at 2012 for all you conspiracy theorists out there. Don't mind my spelling. I pretty much suck at it. I blame the army for that one. All those damn acronyms.