spare me, for i am a mere cancer trying to tame a gemini

[pilotsrock]

Well i guess it all started yesterday when we were looking at gowns for the wedding i prefer not to waste my time with. What it comes down to is that my family pretty much told me they can't make it so i'm not too happy with that one. Today she said she was gonna call me after she figured out what was going on with everything as far as her parents were gonna go look at gowns today and she wanted me to come. Well that was around 9 in the morning so around a quarter after 1 i'm starting to get a little annoyed with the whole wasting my day thing as usual that she always seems to put me through so i call over and to no surprise i get her voicemail. So i get a call back saying she was swimming and still didn't know what was going on. (whatever) So this time around a half hour later she calls me back and says there going, then ten minutes later they're not. Before i can even get my message sent back to her she calls me to tell me she's coming over, then when she gets here says nothing for 3 hours!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! I didnt fucking do shit!! yet i get this. then around a quarter till 5 goes what do you want to do, like it makes a difference in the world. That's like a month ago when we were coming back from the beach and i told her i wanted to stay over down there next time, and this time when we went we didn't because someone wanted to sleep in her own bed. Then the whole getting her to move out thing, everytime i bring it up she goes to silent mode and says nothing or completely changes the subject. I AM NOT MARRYING someone who i didn't live with for atleast 3 months prior to getting married. Its like i give and give and give and get nothing back. Hell she doesn't even use that damn motorcycle helmet i got her in june other than two damn times. Somethings gotta give cause i feel like im ready to break. I feel like i'm 2 steps from 6 down.

words from the wise: "What the fuck" there i said it i hope something good happens like in risky business.