yellow jackets

[pillsforkills]

i absolutely hate it when everything is lovely and then you realize just how shallow the world is. in particular, just how shallow some people can be. and how, when you have all hope for somebody and admire them for just how magical they are, you discover an entirely different piece of them that doesn't seem so attractive anymore, and you've suddenly lost yourself in a not-so-deep pessimistic divide while you wonder the impossibilities of compatibility.

also, a very large part of my life is about to happen.

i am excited, and at the same time, disappointed.

lonely.