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alicia misses syracuse and so does kevin but i don't. there's nothing here anymore, only the guys i train with but they're so much older i feel isolated and almost seperate even though i shouldn't. it snowed today and i'm starting to feel lousy already. rain and snow and more rain and snow.
and miss everyone, kevin, alicia, sara, everyone. i don't really have anyone except tj and sometimes marc when he's not working. i spent all night playing video games and for about 2 hours just sat in my computer chair thinking about nothing. everyone misses but home but it's all i have ever known and if something doesn't change soon i'm gonna friggin off myself.
i feel drawn to the city. tj, nate and i are going down to stay with kevin for the weekend so tj and nate can go to the snapcase reunion. i can't wait but i feel like kevin's forgotten about me just like everyone else i know. hopefully next year i'll get accepted to pratt and move down there... for some reason i feel like it won't happen. something's gotta change fuweguweguwbgg
fucking cold as fuck outside and it's starting to snow. and it's all setting back in again and i'm freaking out and have nothing but cigarettes to get me by.
and miss everyone, kevin, alicia, sara, everyone. i don't really have anyone except tj and sometimes marc when he's not working. i spent all night playing video games and for about 2 hours just sat in my computer chair thinking about nothing. everyone misses but home but it's all i have ever known and if something doesn't change soon i'm gonna friggin off myself.
i feel drawn to the city. tj, nate and i are going down to stay with kevin for the weekend so tj and nate can go to the snapcase reunion. i can't wait but i feel like kevin's forgotten about me just like everyone else i know. hopefully next year i'll get accepted to pratt and move down there... for some reason i feel like it won't happen. something's gotta change fuweguweguwbgg
fucking cold as fuck outside and it's starting to snow. and it's all setting back in again and i'm freaking out and have nothing but cigarettes to get me by.