what was I thinking?

[pillowfool]

why did I convince myself that moving to Dubai wouldn't be so hard? why did I make it out to be some kind of glamerous adventure? maybe if I had mentally prepared for it to suck as much as it does I might have thought twice about coming... or I would have figured out a way to combat how awful it feels to be here. but I didn't and now I'm stuck

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[whimsical_cow]

Sometimes going through the rough, stressful, argument-inducing stuff together really does bring you closer and strengthen your relationship in the long run, even if it sucks at the time. We all have sides to ourselves that only come out under duress and getting to know that about each other is important, I think. Life hands us all stressful, turn-your-world-upside-down crap inevitably - the big difference is you chose to take this on instead of it being something that just happened. Rather than having the rug ripped out from under you, you gave it up, which takes a lot more courage than most people have.

So give yourself some credit - you weren't deluding yourself before leaving. I can remember several conversations where you wondered how you would deal with culture shock, isolation, and potentially hating it there. You were also optimistic about it being a grand adventure, but adventures and tough times aren't mutually exclusive. Actually I think they go hand in hand a lot.

Anyways for what it's worth I still think what you did and are doing is very brave. You don't sound pathetic at all - you're just dealing with something really challenging. All of us over here still love you like crazy and we're here for you no matter where you are now or what comes next.

<3 Jenn