Confrontations and mood swings
This week has been full of weird confrontations and me attempting to stand up for myself. I lodged a complaint against the psychotic construction worker who screamed at me, and wouldn't let me speak. I complained to my manager about the shitty way the lead in the other tasting room treats me, and I'm dealing with Audi's manager about all the car problems I've had already even though it's only been 3 months. The car has already cost me $900 in repairs. That's what I've had to pay for deductibles and maintenance stufff that should have been taken care of. It's running like a dream $4500 worth of repairs later. Thank god I bought the extended warranty and have great comprehensive coverage. I think the worst is the tasting room treatment though. It's caused me the most stress for the longest amount of time and my manager is talking to her tomorrow, which is also stressing me out. I don't want to go there anymore. One of the new girls is super rude too and try's to cut into all my conversations and makes snide remarks. I'm so over it.
I was in such a good mood earlier today and then my mood just plummeted. I get really lonely being left alone every night. Dima is working but I get anxious and depressed. He usually leaves within a half hour of me getting home and gets home right as it's time for me to leave for work. He doesn't clean up his stuff unless I ask also. It's starting to freak me out that all he does is sleep and do poker related things. No other interests or time spent developing himself. He's finally keeping track of his earnings and losses after months of my asking him to.
I have a lot of good things going on too. Seem to have secured a spot at poker at least once a week, and did a client building event Friday and booked 3 clients this week : ) I feel like I'm building actual friendships now and am starting to love Portland as well as the country out here. Zeel is out here now as well so I will start trying to get some of those jobs again. I feel really valued at the spa and it's so pleasant to work there. They even let me sit in on an eminence class so I could get a free product. I think my dreams of having a wine industry career are going on hold for awhile. I need a break and I've been drinking too much. Perhaps I'll revisit it at another time.
breaking up with wine
I was in such a good mood earlier today and then my mood just plummeted. I get really lonely being left alone every night. Dima is working but I get anxious and depressed. He usually leaves within a half hour of me getting home and gets home right as it's time for me to leave for work. He doesn't clean up his stuff unless I ask also. It's starting to freak me out that all he does is sleep and do poker related things. No other interests or time spent developing himself. He's finally keeping track of his earnings and losses after months of my asking him to.
I have a lot of good things going on too. Seem to have secured a spot at poker at least once a week, and did a client building event Friday and booked 3 clients this week : ) I feel like I'm building actual friendships now and am starting to love Portland as well as the country out here. Zeel is out here now as well so I will start trying to get some of those jobs again. I feel really valued at the spa and it's so pleasant to work there. They even let me sit in on an eminence class so I could get a free product. I think my dreams of having a wine industry career are going on hold for awhile. I need a break and I've been drinking too much. Perhaps I'll revisit it at another time.
breaking up with wine