Fair weather
Been a nice couple of weeks. Feels like the past has cleared and I've been working on my projects almost every day and being mostly vegetarian. Just read through some of my exes entries from 10 years ago when we were together and after we split. This summer I disconnected from him after a long series of events that made me feel used and unimportant. He messaged me two days ago wanting to reconcile the friendship and I'm not sure exactly what to do about it. My initial reaction was sadness about the loss and joy that he wanted to reconnect. My boyfriend is adamantly against it, understandably. I'm just going to sit with it for a couple days and make sense of all the emotions it brought up. I feel really good in all arenas otherwise. Feeling a bit loafy from a lazier lifestyle but feel so loved just don't really care. Dima is so soft in a world of hard. My highschool boyfriend and high school best friend visited last week and got engaged!!! I helped plan it. It was amazing and I'm so happy for them. Go first loves!!! Most mellow Halloween ever. Carved a pumpkin, handed out candy to kids, and watched Rosemary's baby. Everything thing is reconfiguring itself so I can easily step into the next chapter of my life. Feeling at peace and comfortable.
