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Been busy as of late. With work and school and all, I feel like I live at beaumont and hfcc. I am trying to hang out with my friends some more lately. I have actually seen Jay, and I saw April a few times. It sucks having no life, but I am hoping to fix that eventually. Which will not be in the next few months, due to school owning me. I went and saw a movie today with a friend from work, it was a good time. Its always fun to make a new friend. I have been feeling a little weird lately though. Not necissarily in a bad way, just different. Things are actually going pretty well for me recently. I start nusing school in the fall, I have a new car, make decent money, made a new friend (which is awesome), and all this has made my mood pretty decent. But something just feels weird to me. I have this weird almost nauseating (sp?) anxious feeling in my stomach that almost makes me feel down, but its fightable. I don't quite understand that one, as I don't remember feeling that one before. (a plus to NOT being on anti-depressants...I can actually feel things) I feel I have been working through my problems pretty good lately as well. Its been awhile since I have made any progress, and it feels good to do so. For some reason I have actually been feeling better about myself to an extent, which is a huge step for me as some of you may know. I am obviously not entirely happy with myself, but really....who is? I still have some major things to work out, but I need to have something to occupy my free time...what little I have that is. I guess sometimes its best to be busy all the time, to keep yourself from dwelling too much on the past and your problems. But at the same time, I have actually been able to push forward some more in my life. I want things out of my life and it does me no good just sitting around letting time go by and wasting my life. I am bound determined to kick this, cherish the happy things and move on. I want to be happy again, and I want to have my life back. I am also determined to figure out what these new feelings I am having are. Totally weird.