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I havent felt this way about a guy in forever....too bad he goes to school in Baltimore and me in Florida.....I've had a crush on this guy since we met last summer....saw him for the first time tonight since winter break and it was lovely....it was nice to hang out with a guy with no expectations of a hook up although we have before and wouldve had we a place to go haha but thats besides the point....I really enjoy his company.....Maybe I'm reading too far into this and Im just seeking some attention and affection on a less shallow level then my hook ups. Also I need to stop leading guys on...I have a problem saying no.
I want cut back on smoking like I really do. I've only had one or two every day or two since I'm at home now and cant really smoke. I just need to exercise the same self control when i go back to Florida, although I'll probably cave.
Sometimes I have to stop and wonder how I got to the point I'm at right now.
What am I doing with my life, seriously.
Sometimes I feel like Im happy but sometimes I feel like Im fooling myself into thinkign Im happy. I feel like I'm looking for something but I can't seem to figure out what it is Im searching for or how to obtain it no matter what I do.
I want cut back on smoking like I really do. I've only had one or two every day or two since I'm at home now and cant really smoke. I just need to exercise the same self control when i go back to Florida, although I'll probably cave.
Sometimes I have to stop and wonder how I got to the point I'm at right now.
What am I doing with my life, seriously.
Sometimes I feel like Im happy but sometimes I feel like Im fooling myself into thinkign Im happy. I feel like I'm looking for something but I can't seem to figure out what it is Im searching for or how to obtain it no matter what I do.