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I've never really been one to dislike my home country - I've always been appreciative of what America has to offer, but I also have tried to look at its flaws also. Anyway, my like/dislike for America has always balanced out in the end. I may not always agree with what my country does (along with about 99% of other Americans) but I've never actually wanted to live anywhere else.
But I think a light bulb just turned on. I don't want to live here anymore. I want to wake up & be in Japan. I don't care if I hear "gaijin" everywhere I go. I want to just sit in a cafe & absorb the conversation around me. I want to know what it's like to take a bit of each religion & make it your own, & for that to be absolutely okay. I want to just be able to pick up on the bits and pieces of the Japanese language that foreigners don't understand just because they're foreigners.
Sure, I've wanted to visit Japan for years now, but it's always been just that - a visit, a vacation. I'm sure plenty of people in my position have felt like this for while, but it feels just kind of like I've opened my eyes, y'know?
I of course have to get through the rest of this whole college thing, but after that, what's holding me back? Family will always be family even if I'm half a world away, & I'm sure my friends would not mind the opportunity to visit me. It's not like I have a significant other that I need to see everyday or a magnificent job to keep.
I want unagi now. ;o;
But I think a light bulb just turned on. I don't want to live here anymore. I want to wake up & be in Japan. I don't care if I hear "gaijin" everywhere I go. I want to just sit in a cafe & absorb the conversation around me. I want to know what it's like to take a bit of each religion & make it your own, & for that to be absolutely okay. I want to just be able to pick up on the bits and pieces of the Japanese language that foreigners don't understand just because they're foreigners.
Sure, I've wanted to visit Japan for years now, but it's always been just that - a visit, a vacation. I'm sure plenty of people in my position have felt like this for while, but it feels just kind of like I've opened my eyes, y'know?
I of course have to get through the rest of this whole college thing, but after that, what's holding me back? Family will always be family even if I'm half a world away, & I'm sure my friends would not mind the opportunity to visit me. It's not like I have a significant other that I need to see everyday or a magnificent job to keep.
I want unagi now. ;o;