Hmm.

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I miss my old friends and want to leave all of these judgmental people I call my friends and go back to the ones who I could hang with and not feel like shit around, when the only insults that were thrown about weren't based on things that could actually hurt ones feelings, but just called each other shit head and poop face and we kept amused like that.....Eon, Mike, Dylan....no one was hateful we just played games and dicked around.

I'm at a loss currently because I don't want to move in with my parents but i think that might be the only option right now. I'm tempted to just vanish from Courtney's house one day when shes at work and move to the folks....don't know what to do about my couch but I have some time to think on it, I'm paid in full until the end of the month.

Only thing is, I don't want to be living with my parents long, I feel it will be slightly detrimental to my growth, but then again it might not depending on how much money I can make in the time I'm there and how far out of debt I can get myself to live on my own. Even thought that prospect also frightens the ever loving snot out of me. I forgot how cathartic this is, I might have to do this more often again where no one I really hang out with can see it, it's back to how it was in the day when it wasn't popular.