Sorry
Man i am not happy. i feel like shit. in 4 and 1/2 hours i should be wakign up to surf. but i cant sleep. i am letting myself down, i am letting my friends down and i feel like shit. i feel like i am giving up and fucking up the rest of my life by this. not just not surfing. well that too. i feel like evryday i dont surf i lose ability and then in the long run i wont be able to surf = sad pikea. i feel like i am giving up cuz its easier. should i tough it out? get like no sleep and then have a full fuxking day ahead of me? or what? it sucks! ah! this sucks! but w/e, u cant win em all right? well anyways...i dont fucking know. i let down my friends and they will porbably not call me in the future cuz of this. its not my fault but still. and the only thing cheering me up is http://shadowdane.shackspace.com/cats.htm cuz it is just fantastic.