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Not to say anyone is concerned, but perhaps you have some unanswered questions...perhaps i'd feel better to let you know that i'm not, in fact, out having a nice time and therefor don't feel the need to use my computer. Plus, reality is just so much more juicy isn't it? ass.
The short version, for those who have better things to do?
Grounded, can leave only on weekends. and it depends on the situation.
Myself and others drank the last day of school and substance abuse education classes. The most relevant thing being the substance abuse classes, because there are better times to get drunk. It doesn't look good. We drink, get drunk, drunk dial, drunk sex, drunk loud. Cops. "breathe". "I don't know whats going on I swear". Uncontrollable incoherent sobs. More cops. Cop cars. Family. "I can't believe this" Skip a few hours and wake up to see a hospital room. "1.8". Shame Shame. Court? in the future. Yes, i was clean. Yes, I fucked up. To me I could have done much worse, this was a conscious decision, not impulsive.
I had a heated debate with a psychologist and psychiatrist yesterday. My anxiety and panic attacks have increased significantly and I am tired of zoloft. I explained to them that i've never felt it worked and i've given it time and i'm tired of the solution to every problem being an additional 25mg. They opted to take out the concerta for a bit because a 'stimulant can increase anxiety'. Understandable, but when they're substituting one problem for another. I'm not looking for a cure-all, and if i had it my way i wouldn't be on anything, but they've already started and i can't stop being my body is now 5 pills and i would become irritable.
Can you sedate yourself when ever you please?
taunt.
I took the phrase 'write a book' into consideration because it has been presented to me quite a few times. I started it in my head and fell into quite the predicament because every word i tried to use i couldn't agree with, because i would analyze it, pick it apart, and prove it unsatisfactory and misused. Examples being the words: example, random, can't, alone, impulse, human nature, answer. I didn't get far.
I work from 11-2, come home, assent to a scattered craved repose, play guitar, mope, plod, turn every thought into a discrepancy, go through the call id, and repeat everything except waitressing until i am unconscious.
jealous much?
pick a band/singer
fill out according to the names of their song/album
Which band did you choose? pink floyd
Are you male or female: Vegetable Man
Describe yourself: Candy And A Currant Bun
How do some people feel about you?: in the flesh
Who Is Your Enemy?: Corporal Clegg
What is your enemy like?: The Happiest Days Of Our Lives
Describe your gf/BOYFRIEND/past relationship: Hey You !
Where are you?: The Thin Ice
Where would you rather be?: Coming Back To Life/Outside The Wall
Describe what you want to be: Comfortably Numb
Describe your life: Wearing The Inside Out
What would you like to do today?: Run Like Hell
What would you like to do tonight?: Young Lust
What do you want?: Nobody Home
commentary is best if it's significant.
also, building kites at the badger tomomorrow, to my dismay it is at the badger, but it's there, so I will be. dismay. gay. i can do the ucf. i like the ucf. GAY BADGER. oh and SANCHEZ i came into town to see you and josh and I couldn't find you. thanks. a-lot.
The short version, for those who have better things to do?
Grounded, can leave only on weekends. and it depends on the situation.
Myself and others drank the last day of school and substance abuse education classes. The most relevant thing being the substance abuse classes, because there are better times to get drunk. It doesn't look good. We drink, get drunk, drunk dial, drunk sex, drunk loud. Cops. "breathe". "I don't know whats going on I swear". Uncontrollable incoherent sobs. More cops. Cop cars. Family. "I can't believe this" Skip a few hours and wake up to see a hospital room. "1.8". Shame Shame. Court? in the future. Yes, i was clean. Yes, I fucked up. To me I could have done much worse, this was a conscious decision, not impulsive.
I had a heated debate with a psychologist and psychiatrist yesterday. My anxiety and panic attacks have increased significantly and I am tired of zoloft. I explained to them that i've never felt it worked and i've given it time and i'm tired of the solution to every problem being an additional 25mg. They opted to take out the concerta for a bit because a 'stimulant can increase anxiety'. Understandable, but when they're substituting one problem for another. I'm not looking for a cure-all, and if i had it my way i wouldn't be on anything, but they've already started and i can't stop being my body is now 5 pills and i would become irritable.
Can you sedate yourself when ever you please?
taunt.
I took the phrase 'write a book' into consideration because it has been presented to me quite a few times. I started it in my head and fell into quite the predicament because every word i tried to use i couldn't agree with, because i would analyze it, pick it apart, and prove it unsatisfactory and misused. Examples being the words: example, random, can't, alone, impulse, human nature, answer. I didn't get far.
I work from 11-2, come home, assent to a scattered craved repose, play guitar, mope, plod, turn every thought into a discrepancy, go through the call id, and repeat everything except waitressing until i am unconscious.
jealous much?
pick a band/singer
fill out according to the names of their song/album
Which band did you choose? pink floyd
Are you male or female: Vegetable Man
Describe yourself: Candy And A Currant Bun
How do some people feel about you?: in the flesh
Who Is Your Enemy?: Corporal Clegg
What is your enemy like?: The Happiest Days Of Our Lives
Describe your gf/BOYFRIEND/past relationship: Hey You !
Where are you?: The Thin Ice
Where would you rather be?: Coming Back To Life/Outside The Wall
Describe what you want to be: Comfortably Numb
Describe your life: Wearing The Inside Out
What would you like to do today?: Run Like Hell
What would you like to do tonight?: Young Lust
What do you want?: Nobody Home
commentary is best if it's significant.
also, building kites at the badger tomomorrow, to my dismay it is at the badger, but it's there, so I will be. dismay. gay. i can do the ucf. i like the ucf. GAY BADGER. oh and SANCHEZ i came into town to see you and josh and I couldn't find you. thanks. a-lot.