Guided meditation...interesting...I have nothing better to write so sue me.
Today I had Ethics class, which is one of the most useless classes but hey, it gives me credits. All we've done is write a report on an Ethics Theory, a geneology tree, and what we did today, guided meditation. Now I haven't meditated or done any of that stuff in years and normally I prefer to do it alone, but the teacher wanted everyone to try it, and also Kim kept bugging me about it "C'mon Kelsey it'll be so kool! I'm going to do it and I want to know what you'll see..." Bla, Figured I'd try since sitting for 20 minutes staring at everyone with thier eyes closed would be very boring. So he asks everyone to close thier eyes and relax our body by concentrating from the feet to the brain, I'm sure you know how it works. After he told us we were to walk down a path, I was in a forest at my grandparents farm walking down a path. it was a little blurry and as I was walking there was a wolf or a large cat or something like that following me. It was what they call as my "power animal" or my "creature of wisdom" as my teacher put it. In the trees there were masks and faces like porceline dolls that were a dark green and white so they would start to blend into the trees. There was one giant tree opposite to the faces that I felt was starting at me. Not even moving to the breeze, just there. Everything moved as if it were a movie where the movements were a little choppy and as I said it was a little blurry, the edges started to blend into each other.
Then he said we reached some sort of open area, And at my grandparents farm there is a feild past the woods so I was there. He told us to feel the engergy of this place , the wind, what kind of place was it etc...It was sunny out but I could not feel the warmth of the sun or the breeze against my skin..I felt nothing. The only feeling was slight panic was because I could feel my skin burning from the sun (I have VERY sensitive skin so everyone knows, I can't use a lot of makeup brands, can't stay out for a long time etc)
Then he said to find a place where we could sit or stand, that this was our place of sanctuary and where our inner peace came from. That instant I felt the cool earth around as if I bad been buried under the soil of the feild, but for some reason I was covered in blood. (I know this doesn't make any sense). There I was happy and at peace. He told us to ask any question we wanted to our inner wisdom now that we were in our place of sanctum. I asked if I would ever be happy and overcome my fears and immense guilt , I know this may sounds stupid to many people, but I asked that question. I felt nothing, I heard nothing, I saw nothing. No sign, no rhyme or reason, just...nothing. Then I felt a gentil hug as if someone came up from behind, I could barely notice. Then I saw a flash of something and I freaked out. I snapped back eyes wide open gripping my hands together. I don't even know what it was I just know it was some very bad, almost evil you could say. Maybe it was a repressed memory or something to come in the future: I wish I knew.
After he told everyone to come back he asked the class to share what they saw or felt. Some people obviously didn't do it and others I heard wonderful stories of being on a beach at night sitting on a rock staring out and being in a forest where everything was blissful, some people couldn't calm their minds down so they couldn't really focus. I know everyone's is different, but why was mine so...deranged? I wish I could explain how I felt but I can't. I told him I didn't do it.
I'm such a putz.
Then he said we reached some sort of open area, And at my grandparents farm there is a feild past the woods so I was there. He told us to feel the engergy of this place , the wind, what kind of place was it etc...It was sunny out but I could not feel the warmth of the sun or the breeze against my skin..I felt nothing. The only feeling was slight panic was because I could feel my skin burning from the sun (I have VERY sensitive skin so everyone knows, I can't use a lot of makeup brands, can't stay out for a long time etc)
Then he said to find a place where we could sit or stand, that this was our place of sanctuary and where our inner peace came from. That instant I felt the cool earth around as if I bad been buried under the soil of the feild, but for some reason I was covered in blood. (I know this doesn't make any sense). There I was happy and at peace. He told us to ask any question we wanted to our inner wisdom now that we were in our place of sanctum. I asked if I would ever be happy and overcome my fears and immense guilt , I know this may sounds stupid to many people, but I asked that question. I felt nothing, I heard nothing, I saw nothing. No sign, no rhyme or reason, just...nothing. Then I felt a gentil hug as if someone came up from behind, I could barely notice. Then I saw a flash of something and I freaked out. I snapped back eyes wide open gripping my hands together. I don't even know what it was I just know it was some very bad, almost evil you could say. Maybe it was a repressed memory or something to come in the future: I wish I knew.
After he told everyone to come back he asked the class to share what they saw or felt. Some people obviously didn't do it and others I heard wonderful stories of being on a beach at night sitting on a rock staring out and being in a forest where everything was blissful, some people couldn't calm their minds down so they couldn't really focus. I know everyone's is different, but why was mine so...deranged? I wish I could explain how I felt but I can't. I told him I didn't do it.
I'm such a putz.