Sunday is a depressing day...but it doesn't have to stay that way!
Today sucked. It was all grey and icky... Bad start to a day.
So, I got home around 3am. I watched Adult Swim at Misty's place. A bunch of other ppl were there too. After getting home, I ended up laying in bed with my lappy working on a school project until like 5 am. I didn't seem to get a whole lot accomplished. I still had Adult Swim on, so I got to watch everything a second time. lol. Mom came by at 5am to check if I got home or was possibly dead on a sidewalk somewhere. I dunno. She worries and cares and I know that. She's just wierd. So at first she was like it's 5am...goto bed. But then she changed and started talking to me a little. Nothing overly important just chatter, which is nice cause we usually don't talk much. I finally got to bed at around 5:30am.
Rise and shine at 7:30! lol a whopping 2 hours of sleep. I cleaned up most of my office. There's still a bunch of stuff on my desk and behind it, but otherwise everythign else is neat :)
The sky was grey and sad. I wanted to take some friends out on my boat. Needless to say, that never happened. I guess it's ok though. I ended up getting a few more things taken care of at home and went to a group meeting for Marketing. We pretty much finished out presentation. It's great! I'm certain we'll have the highest project grade in the class.
I made a promise to myself in the past and up until now I've been quite good at keeping it. I swore that I wouldn't drink when I'm sad or upset. I don't have the tendancies to become alcoholic, in fact I'm not really a fan of it at all. It's just nice to have once in a while socially. I am going to try and cut it out again (with excetion to wine with dinner and the occasional social drink).
My ex and I started bickering over AIM tonight. I have some work to finish at her aunt's apartment. No biggie....should take 30 minutes to finish. I tried as I could to be civil, but she keeps wanting to talk about the issues we had. We didn't have issues...she had issues. I did all that I could to salvage our relationship and even in retrospect, there is nothing more I could have possibly done to make things better. On that note, I will end this topic as I have no desire to talk about the past, and am moving forward in life. I promised friendship and will stick with my promise. I never said what degree of friendship and if I'm made sad, aggravated, or unhappy by her that promise is no longer valid.
Oh, for those of you who take the time to read my journal, I may be making some friends only posts. If and when that time comes, be sure to let me know you want to be added to my friends list and I'll add you!
So, now I'm off to write an email to a friend who I have interest in and I will try to explain my recent feelings in some comprehensive manner instead of a mumble jumble of mixed ideas and emotion.
I think I'm ready to place the past there, keep it as a reference and not let it disrupt my future. I have a lot to live for and a great future after school...The transition will be a rough one, but atleast I know in the end I will be financially secure if nothing else.
Oh, one last thing. I would like to extend my sincere gratitude to my friends both new and old who have been there for me in my time of need. I'm out of the rut and moving forward and it's because of the positive support/recommendations/feedback from you that helped me become the positive, bubbly person I usually am! YAY! So, now I'm off to write an email, think happy thoughts, and see where life takes me...or if I take life somewhere XD
So, I got home around 3am. I watched Adult Swim at Misty's place. A bunch of other ppl were there too. After getting home, I ended up laying in bed with my lappy working on a school project until like 5 am. I didn't seem to get a whole lot accomplished. I still had Adult Swim on, so I got to watch everything a second time. lol. Mom came by at 5am to check if I got home or was possibly dead on a sidewalk somewhere. I dunno. She worries and cares and I know that. She's just wierd. So at first she was like it's 5am...goto bed. But then she changed and started talking to me a little. Nothing overly important just chatter, which is nice cause we usually don't talk much. I finally got to bed at around 5:30am.
Rise and shine at 7:30! lol a whopping 2 hours of sleep. I cleaned up most of my office. There's still a bunch of stuff on my desk and behind it, but otherwise everythign else is neat :)
The sky was grey and sad. I wanted to take some friends out on my boat. Needless to say, that never happened. I guess it's ok though. I ended up getting a few more things taken care of at home and went to a group meeting for Marketing. We pretty much finished out presentation. It's great! I'm certain we'll have the highest project grade in the class.
I made a promise to myself in the past and up until now I've been quite good at keeping it. I swore that I wouldn't drink when I'm sad or upset. I don't have the tendancies to become alcoholic, in fact I'm not really a fan of it at all. It's just nice to have once in a while socially. I am going to try and cut it out again (with excetion to wine with dinner and the occasional social drink).
My ex and I started bickering over AIM tonight. I have some work to finish at her aunt's apartment. No biggie....should take 30 minutes to finish. I tried as I could to be civil, but she keeps wanting to talk about the issues we had. We didn't have issues...she had issues. I did all that I could to salvage our relationship and even in retrospect, there is nothing more I could have possibly done to make things better. On that note, I will end this topic as I have no desire to talk about the past, and am moving forward in life. I promised friendship and will stick with my promise. I never said what degree of friendship and if I'm made sad, aggravated, or unhappy by her that promise is no longer valid.
Oh, for those of you who take the time to read my journal, I may be making some friends only posts. If and when that time comes, be sure to let me know you want to be added to my friends list and I'll add you!
So, now I'm off to write an email to a friend who I have interest in and I will try to explain my recent feelings in some comprehensive manner instead of a mumble jumble of mixed ideas and emotion.
I think I'm ready to place the past there, keep it as a reference and not let it disrupt my future. I have a lot to live for and a great future after school...The transition will be a rough one, but atleast I know in the end I will be financially secure if nothing else.
Oh, one last thing. I would like to extend my sincere gratitude to my friends both new and old who have been there for me in my time of need. I'm out of the rut and moving forward and it's because of the positive support/recommendations/feedback from you that helped me become the positive, bubbly person I usually am! YAY! So, now I'm off to write an email, think happy thoughts, and see where life takes me...or if I take life somewhere XD