Bigger boy and Stolen Sweetheart(3B/4)
Chapter 3B:
It was night when he finally reaching Kangwondo after a nonstop driving from Seoul,DongHae didn’t even knew HyukJae’s grandmother’s address but this was a small town everybody knew everybody in this kind of town,the first person he asked gave him a direction and it was right but the housed was empty,nobody at home.DongHae drove for about 200 meter until he found a small diner placed,the neighbor next door said HyukJae’s grandmother had a diner and both of them was in there working
He parked his car,didn’t immediately went out from his car he observed the placed tried to catched if this was a right place or if HyukJae was inside the diner.He stepped out from his car,there’s a “Sorry we’re closed” sign on the door,DongHae tried to pushed the door it was locked so he tried to knocked on the glass door.
A young girl suddenly appears behind the glass door,she pointing the closed sign on the door”Sorry”She mouthing.
“No…no…no”DongHae shouted outside the door tried to stopped the girl”I’m looking for someone,can you please open the door for me?”
The girl tilted her head aside,she raised her point finger and mouthing”Stay”and then she was gone inside the diner,DongHae couldn’t saw her.
“Damn!”He said but DongHae didn’t moved he do what the young girl told him,stay in his placed leaning his back to the glass door behind him,a minuted later a familiar voiced reached his ears”Can I help you?”
DongHae fastly turned around and right on the other side behind the glass door there was HyukJae standing right in front of him,DongHae only waving and gave him a softed smiled.
HyukJae on the other side can’t help but smiled,a big wide smiled on his face while he unlocking the door for DongHae.
“Hai”That’s the very first word that coming out from DongHae’s mouth after months and months didn’t saw him,still standing outside the diner both of his hands inside his pocket coat.
HyukJae was just standing there staring at DongHae with a wide smiled,he had a mixed feeling inside him right now didn’t even believed DongHae was here right in front of him halfed of his heart was happy knowing that DongHae still care,and he already put down his wall to came all the here to said he was sorry for everything he did to HyukJae.
HyukJae wanted to thought that maybe…just maybe DongHae still wanted to be with him and fixed everything between them,telling him that they still can worked everything out but he wipe all of that thoughts he had enough with this guy,he needed to stopped his wishfull thinking cause he believed he deserved someone better than DongHae.HyukJae even didn’t believed that he will ending up with someone else’s heart except for DongHae but he was reaching his own limit,so enough it’s enough.
“Wanna come in?”He said to DongHae.
DongHae just smiled and stepped inside the diner.
A moment latter DongHae already sat on one of the chair in the diner waiting for HyukJae to came out from the kitchen,it’s just the two of them,before HyukJae already introducing DongHae to his grandma they had a little nice talked but the old lady knew the two of them needed some spaced so she excused herself.Before she left her own diner she hugged HyukJae tight,kissed his forehead and gave a meaning smiled”Do whatever that will make you happy”She said.
“Sorry for making you wait but here’s your dinner”HyukJae put a spaghetti meetballs plate in front of DongHae”This is the only thing we got in the kitchen”he also put a cup of hot tea next to the plate.
“Thank you”DongHae said he started to digging his late dinner,it was quiet between DongHae and HyukJae no one spoke to the other,HyukJae just sitting there and watched DongHae eat.
“You look tired”HyukJae said,he put his chin on his right hand.
DongHae swallowed his last spoon of his dinner and chuckled”got trouble sleeping”
HyukJae smiled,he suddenly reached something onto DongHae’s cheek”You got something”He said while wiping a traced of sauce on DongHae’s cheek.
“So,how’s Jessica?”HyukJae suddenly asked just wanted to made the whole ‘I’m sorry’ processed more fasted and ended his pain inside cause no matter how hard he told his heart to stopped beating so fast it can’t,he even tried to convinced himself that he didn’t love DongHae no more but the more he convinced himself the more he realized that he just can’t stop loving DongHae.
DongHae took both of HyukJae’s hands held it tight”She was crazy and I’m scared of her and I’m over her”
HyukJae was staring right into DongHae’s eyes and saw something that he never saw before a love,a sincere and a million warm emotion that HyukJae can’t defined.He didn’t even knew what to said when he heard DongHae told him about that,happy?his answer was beyond but that doesn’t mean we will just let the matters slipping away.
“Why-why are you in here?”It was hard to found a words or anything to said after hearing the new information about DongHae.
“I want to meet you”DongHae tighten his held on HyukJae’s hands”The two of us have been through so much together and I just….”DongHae stopped for a while looking straight into HyukJae’s eyes”God,I really miss you”
HyukJae smiled,he pulled his hands from DongHae’s held”You don’t miss me you just bored”A same smiled still appeared on his faced.
DongHae was startled when he heard that,a shocked and frown was showed in his faced”Hyuk-“
Before he can even finished his sentenced HyukJae already said something”You just need me.Need me to do,to get whatever you want to get and then when you found me missing and your little happy land seems to crumpling around you that’s when you are looking for me,just to fix every little mess that you had made.It’s always like that since we are kid,no wonder HeeChul-hyung hate you so much”HyukJae chuckled.
“No,listen to me”DongHae tried to held HyukJae’s but HyukJae slapping it away.
“No!you”He pointing his finger to DongHae”Listen to me!”his voiced was raised”You don’t have any idea what I’ve been through just so you can give me a little spaced in your heart”HyukJae’s voiced was shaking by now”I shed tears for you for a millions times in my life but I still care for you,when you ignore me for something that I didn’t even knew what the reason is but I’m but still long for you.When you falling in love and it breaks my heart and yet I still manage to smile and find a courage to say’I’m happy for you’”He looked down to the table,trying hard not to let his tears fall.
“I love you”DongHae said softly but enough to HyukJae to heard.
Suddenly HyukJae snapped his head up and gave DongHae a hard slapped on his faced”Don’t you dare to said you love me now!”And once again another hard slapped on the other cheeks.DongHae just sat there,in front of HyukJae taking all the hard slapped the other gave it to him.
“If you want me in your life,put me there!I shouldn’t have to fight for a spot for a jerk like you!I shouldn’t!”This was a very first time DongHae heard HyukJae shouting”You said you miss me?Do you really miss me?I mean truly,aching in the bottom of your heart pain,which you just can’t ignore?”
This time DongHae lifted his faced up,facing HyukJae.His cheeks was burning cause the hard slapped”That’s how I feel,every single day.Everytime I wake up in the middle of the nights and it always hits me,that there wasn’t anyone who loved me as much as you love me”
HyukJae suddenly stood up from his chair”Get out!”He said firmly through his glassy eyes.
“Something else changed you,what was it?Cause love does not just disappear”DongHae said while standing up facing HyukJae”I’m not leave until you tell me what changed?why you turn your back on me,on us.”
HyukJae once again raised his hand,suddenly feeling so angry with the situation and all he wanted to do just slapping DongHae pretend to be innocent faced,so he did that and hard“You just didn’t know me at all,so shut up!Now get out,leave me alone!”
“I love you”DongHae still trying after he got another hard slap”come back to me”
“I’m losing faith in you and I’m so over with everything you said to me!getting over you was the thing that I was happy about it!Get out!”
Before DongHae stepping out from the diner he faced HyukJae for one last ime,reaching to his cheek”If you ever need me,I’m here”He said softly,his thumb softly caressing HyukJae’s skin”Always”
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His eyes was red,swollen and puffy the next morning but he didn’t wanted to talked about it to everyone.His grandma was worried but the old lady knew it was better to just shut her mouth and let HyukJae handle everything,even though from her point of view what HyukJae do was just a waste of time and only hurting himself.
“Baby”She said when HyukJae cleaned one of the table”You can just rest at home if you want”She ran her fingers through HyukJae’s hairs.
“No,I’m fine”HyukJae gave a reassuring smiled,his voiced was hoarse.
“If you said so”His grandma kissed him on the forehead and went away to the front table.That’s when he saw a black car parked on the diner,HyukJae’s eyes get widen when he saw who just stepping out from the car.His eyes followed every moved that the person made until finaly the other one stepped inside the diner.
HyukJae’s grandma greet him,the two of them talked,HyukJae can saw that they had a little good time.Grandma gave a softly patted on DongHae’s shoulder she even tidy up DongHae’s coat,they hugged each other,HyukJae saw his grandma whispering something to DongHae that made DongHae smiled that’s when DongHae turned around and gave a softed smiled to HyukJae while waving lighty at him and HyukJae just stood there didn’t even moved a bit.
His grandma walked DongHae outside,he gave her a kissed on the cheeks and one last hugged before finally he stepped inside his car and drove away.The moment DongHae’s car drove away from the parking lot HyukJae fastly ran to his grandma who still standing outside”Is he go?”
The old lady smiled”Yes,he said he needed to went back to Seoul”
“Why?”
“He didn’t said why he needed to go”
“Is he talking about me?”
The old lady chuckled”No,he didn’t honey.He just said that he wished he can stayed longer that’s all”
Somehow HyukJae felt sad,DongHae said he loved him but that’s it a little rejection and then he ran away not even tried hard for a second time.But isn’t he the one who told DongHae to left him alone and telling him that he already over him but now seeing DongHae walked away just like that made him this kind of feeling that he didn’t even can’t explain.
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It was raining hard on the highway when DongHae decide to drove away home,his mind was flying somewhere the burning on his cheeks was still there but his heart was even more burning than his cheeks.He decide to pull over his car,he leaned his forehead to the steering wheel listening to sound of the water falling hard from the sky”What have I done?”
He took his cell phone from his pocket and dial a number.
“Yeah?”The other line said.
“Hyung”DongHae said with a polite soft voiced still leaning his forehead on the steering wheel”It’s me”
“Fish brain?”
DongHae chuckled”Yes,sorry for bothering you in the rush hour like this but I need to tell you something”
HeeChul on the other line rolled his eyes,he knew what DongHae wanted to said”Yes..yes cut the shit off,give the phone to HyukJae let me talk to him”
DongHae chuckled”You are right hyung”DongHae sighed”He didn’t want me.He move on and he hate me,just like what you said to me”
“Wha-What?”HeeChul was shouted and choked on the same time when he heard this,how can his HyukJae do that.All his life all HeeChul knew was HyukJae only loved Lee DongHae the fish brain and here he was hearing his little brother hating someone and move on from this fish brain.
“We had a talked yesterday and he said he didn’t want me and he wanted me to left him alone,well basicly he said everything that you already said to me before and I deserve that and-is this a punishment from God for me,for being a jerk?”
“God doesn’t punish people for being in love”Somehow HeeChul knew what DongHae had been through”And you are not a jerk you just trying so hard to be one.”
DongHae chuckled”Thank you,wow I’m feeling so honored that the one and only Kim HeeChul-ssi gave me a compliment.”
“Shut up!you still a fish brain!”
“Thank you”DongHae suddenly said”Thank you for everything and I’m sorry for being a stupid,fish brain jerk who had been playing with your little brother’s heart but now I pay the price for that”
“Where are you?”
“On the way home”
“Did you love him?”
“Yes”Even though HeeChul can’t see DongHae’s faced he knew he said that for real.
“If you love someone you didn’t walk away just like that,you fight for him”
“I promise,aren’t I?if he didn’t want me to be in his life I’ll leave just like what he wanted,I don’t wanna push him.He already hate me,I don’t wanna make him hating me more than this.And he deserve someone better than me,please take a good care for him”
HeeChul can’t even said one single words,his not good with an emotional thing like this so he just pressed the end button and it’s not because he hate DongHae or something like that,he just didn’t wanted DongHae to knew if he was sad on the inside.Thinking this two people just hurting themselves even more.
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Bitting his nail HyukJae can’t stopped looking at his watch,he wanted to cried,he kept blaming himself for whatever just happened that day.It was happening with a sudden phone called from his hyung back in seoul on the afternoon.
“DongHae got an accident”
After hearing that information HyukJae didn’t even remembered other things that his hyung said to him,he was shocked feeling all of his body limp.
“Is..is he okay?”He asked with a shaking voiced.
“I don’t know but I think it’s bad”
“Pick me up on the train station I’m on my way back to Seoul”
And now HyukJae already sat on the train,a thousand bad thought running on his mind,no he didn’t wanted to loss DongHae.A big regret filling his mind about all the bad things he said to DongHae.
“Please be okay for me,Hae”He prayed.
TBC......
PS:I’m so sorry(bow 1000x)I promised I will worked super hard but the truth is,after being graduate and back in my hometown I was kinda drunk with all the things around me,all I do was just hanging out with my hometown friends and I admit I’m being a lazy ass!I’m super sorry about adding a new chapter for this….so sorry(Don’t hate me for being a lazy ass)
xxoo