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hello there world!!!
i have not updated this in a looong while!!!:PPPP
FML all my goals down the drain..............
SO.
I hopefully I get to see VersaEmerge Nov. 18!!! AND EVEN SPECIALER I MAY GET TO SEE... HEY MONDAY AND THE READY SET!!!! THIS THURSDAY!!! :) *flails*
i have posted this like everywhere and i thought to just update everything i got now:)
things been good here...i guess.
my old group is nice. they talk to me more seriously or better seperately rather then we're all together in our french class. I think that they're not used to it, me being there.:/ it makes me feel uber awkward.
Uh...my new best friend iguess you could say, has been great but she's more into herself at times and i love her but sometimes she thinks she's like the best thing ever or like she's uber special, but come on. there's so fucking much a person can take of that. also she always tries to...how do you say...show off? or something? like i sorta got her on panic! and now she's in love with ryan ross and his old make up and everything. does she not realize they're there more than to look at (though an awesome upside;) ? Can people just listen to band's lyrics? Appreciate things besides appearances?
I dunno but that always pisses me off.
GOD.
AND i also realize, that i have no one. Like as in a best friend, or like a group i could always been. I'm always an outsider. and i just wanted to cry when i realized this after my friend's birthday party. It's like i was friends with her in first grade and lost touch till like 6th grade and we've been friends since then. I really just can't explain it. It's just that we're like...well i consider her....my best friend because she's just there and i love her<3
But in the carride back, everyone there i realized they'd been good friends since about forever and i am the total outsider. i can never be in someone's old picture, inside joke, or world. I can't even believe anyone even wants me in their group and i'm just like...happy i have friends, but you know when you are totally alone when you can't randomly call or text a friend when you're nervous, pissed off or something about something. It just doesn't happen for me now. I don't even know.
It's really pathetic.
-sigh-
I don't know.
i have not updated this in a looong while!!!:PPPP
FML all my goals down the drain..............
SO.
I hopefully I get to see VersaEmerge Nov. 18!!! AND EVEN SPECIALER I MAY GET TO SEE... HEY MONDAY AND THE READY SET!!!! THIS THURSDAY!!! :) *flails*
i have posted this like everywhere and i thought to just update everything i got now:)
things been good here...i guess.
my old group is nice. they talk to me more seriously or better seperately rather then we're all together in our french class. I think that they're not used to it, me being there.:/ it makes me feel uber awkward.
Uh...my new best friend iguess you could say, has been great but she's more into herself at times and i love her but sometimes she thinks she's like the best thing ever or like she's uber special, but come on. there's so fucking much a person can take of that. also she always tries to...how do you say...show off? or something? like i sorta got her on panic! and now she's in love with ryan ross and his old make up and everything. does she not realize they're there more than to look at (though an awesome upside;) ? Can people just listen to band's lyrics? Appreciate things besides appearances?
I dunno but that always pisses me off.
GOD.
AND i also realize, that i have no one. Like as in a best friend, or like a group i could always been. I'm always an outsider. and i just wanted to cry when i realized this after my friend's birthday party. It's like i was friends with her in first grade and lost touch till like 6th grade and we've been friends since then. I really just can't explain it. It's just that we're like...well i consider her....my best friend because she's just there and i love her<3
But in the carride back, everyone there i realized they'd been good friends since about forever and i am the total outsider. i can never be in someone's old picture, inside joke, or world. I can't even believe anyone even wants me in their group and i'm just like...happy i have friends, but you know when you are totally alone when you can't randomly call or text a friend when you're nervous, pissed off or something about something. It just doesn't happen for me now. I don't even know.
It's really pathetic.
-sigh-
I don't know.