Life
It has been a week since I have been off my Paxil completely. A few months ago I decided with my Dr to try to get off all my meds. I started at 40mg of Paxil and am now off. The only thing I noticed is I cry extremely easily. I'll be watching couple's therapy and I start tearing up at the sad parts. I am still on my Lamictal (anti seizure for mood stablization). I am on a extremely small dose (normal is 250+ I'm on 100). After I have been off the Paxil for 6+ weeks I am to start cutting back the Lamictal. Will it all work or last? Who knows. It is worth a shot. I really feel like I need to start seeing someone again though. I'm in such a rut.
I live with my parents. Been out of school for a year and in the same job for 4 years (been a CNA for 7 years). I need something new. I don't go out because I'm 45 minutes from where my "friends" are. I use the term "friends" loosely. I really only have two friends.
At the end of June we got an e-mail from my aunt that she has breast cancer. In a little over a week she will have a lumpectomy and then start chemo. The original plan was short term radiation and now it is chemo for roughly a year. Everytime I think about it I start to cry. I have never had anyone this close to me have cancer. <3 I don't have much money so I am planning on doing my extreme couponing to help send some things to her & my uncle.
At the same time my brother lost his job (less than a month after him & his gf of 3 years broke up). I am very protective of him, hes the baby. I feel like I've done so much in my short life that I don't want him to experience. He has a car payment, rent, tuition & books. We don't get much assistance with school because my dad apparently makes too much. If he could he would help with tuition but he financially can not. So I've been doing my extreme couponing for him (6 free deoderants & three tubes of toothpaste for free). He did file for unemployment & is getting food stamps as well. Hey he paid so much into it why not use it when in the situation he is. He is one person that I will not complain about supporting with my taxes lol. He was suppose to paint our neighbors house this week and now today the neighbor called my mom (they're friends) and said no I don't want him to do it in case he falls/gets hurt/etc. I get it but it was an extra $200 in his pocket he wouldve had. And with school starting in a little over a month he could've used it.
August 3rd I am doing a 6K. I am beyond nervous because I haven't done much walking since my back stuff. However it's for the Sikh Temple, the location of the shooting a year ago August 5th in what I consider my home town.
I noticed I have been beyond indecisive lately. More so than usual. I am selling my kindle because I never use it. I have someone all lined up & now I am second guessing if I want to sell. I don't know why because I've seriously used it on my michigan trip & my california trip. twice in over a year. I don't buy books because I never re-read them. Plus on the Kindle I can't share with someone. Why am I second guessing?
I live with my parents. Been out of school for a year and in the same job for 4 years (been a CNA for 7 years). I need something new. I don't go out because I'm 45 minutes from where my "friends" are. I use the term "friends" loosely. I really only have two friends.
At the end of June we got an e-mail from my aunt that she has breast cancer. In a little over a week she will have a lumpectomy and then start chemo. The original plan was short term radiation and now it is chemo for roughly a year. Everytime I think about it I start to cry. I have never had anyone this close to me have cancer. <3 I don't have much money so I am planning on doing my extreme couponing to help send some things to her & my uncle.
At the same time my brother lost his job (less than a month after him & his gf of 3 years broke up). I am very protective of him, hes the baby. I feel like I've done so much in my short life that I don't want him to experience. He has a car payment, rent, tuition & books. We don't get much assistance with school because my dad apparently makes too much. If he could he would help with tuition but he financially can not. So I've been doing my extreme couponing for him (6 free deoderants & three tubes of toothpaste for free). He did file for unemployment & is getting food stamps as well. Hey he paid so much into it why not use it when in the situation he is. He is one person that I will not complain about supporting with my taxes lol. He was suppose to paint our neighbors house this week and now today the neighbor called my mom (they're friends) and said no I don't want him to do it in case he falls/gets hurt/etc. I get it but it was an extra $200 in his pocket he wouldve had. And with school starting in a little over a month he could've used it.
August 3rd I am doing a 6K. I am beyond nervous because I haven't done much walking since my back stuff. However it's for the Sikh Temple, the location of the shooting a year ago August 5th in what I consider my home town.
I noticed I have been beyond indecisive lately. More so than usual. I am selling my kindle because I never use it. I have someone all lined up & now I am second guessing if I want to sell. I don't know why because I've seriously used it on my michigan trip & my california trip. twice in over a year. I don't buy books because I never re-read them. Plus on the Kindle I can't share with someone. Why am I second guessing?