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A part of me loves fisher..and the other part of me is just begging to go home. I've always missed home..but now I miss it even more. I miss coaching cheerleading, I miss being able to see mike anytime I want, I miss my friends..I miss summer and the way things were before everyone went their separate ways. I'm sad that our promises didn't really work after all..I'm sad that I can't see my little sister grow up and that I can't tell my family I love them every night and give them a kiss. I feel so cut-off and disconnected from Buffalo. Fisher is a great school. I love my friends to death, cheering at football & basketball games, having mike come up allll the time, I love having freedom and I love the fact that I have made so many new friends, the parties are so good and It's just a great experience but at the same time I just don't know if it's right for me.. I do have fun here..it's just a general thing. I want to able to see my family, friends, and boyfriend as much as I can..and here I feel like I'm being held back. Maybe I just miss the way things were..It was an amazing summer and now it's gone. I'm happy I have mike who always makes it better. I do love him alot for everything and always be a phone call or a ride away. He's one of the most important people in my life right now and I can't believe it even got this far..but I just hope this goes better than my last relationship. I know it's alot different though..mike treats me like I actually mean something to him. There's so much trust and so much fun and I just feel comfortable. It helps that my friends adore him and we aren't attached at the hip 24/7. We just fit. Thank you God for thatttt. I have to wait it out and see what's going to happen..I might come home afterall. I guess you never really appreciate something until you don't have it anymore...I just want it back.