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Monday I had gymnastics...which was fun. I can't wait till cheerleading starts... I fuckin love it..
so anyways then i came home talked online and went to bed.
Tuesday I woke up and went to school... I had to work which kinda sucked but w.e right. so then I found out some shit that raelly bothered me...then bed... pretty boring.
Wednesday it was a half day and me and chris went and bought cloves/cigars/ciggs. then we went to erins with heatha, aynsley, louis, me, chris, erin (of course) it was fuN! we ordered lotsa chinese and watched the girl next door good movie lol. then we had some shots. well i only had one. i dunno but i havent enjoyed drinking hard liquor in awhile. then everyone left but me and heatha...so we went to shaws and bought some stuff for erin to make cookies..it twas very fun. lol. so then i came home. went with my mom to get shampoo and conditioner for my hair. she was hungry so we got food. i just ate a salad. then I came home and showered. I GOT MY SENIOR PICTURES SO IF YOU WANT ONE LET ME KNOW=) they look awesome... im going to have pictures along with all my friends up monday if I find some time.
so then i got ready and went to bed...
thursday was alright. school was gay. came home. got ready. picked cat up. went to longhorns with kacey and rob and jeff. that was interesting. me and cat talked a lot. I asked her to come with me today though and she said she would...but I called her and she was going to get her sister from college. Its just the same even the Dereck left. not as bad. but w.e...shes going down to Florida next week. and at first she invited me with her but now shes like "oh if u can blah blah blah" it kinda hurts my feeling a little bit but w.e. i guess we've grown a part a little. then we went to the meeting. it was gay. then we went to the highschool cause cat needed to get her cell from alex. then i came home. my mom was like "were you smoking in the car...atleast smoke outside of the car next time cause im allergic to the smell" sorry. geez.
so then i chilled and went to bed.
so today I called cat and like i said she wasnt to interested in what i asked her yesterdday. go figure. so i went and got my paycheck at work. and a dream that i had a wicked long time ago was replayed today at work. jayson had green warrior paint on his face and his glasses and i was getting my paycheck and i had this thing stapled to it. i guess its a new test? and he recited the words from the dream "if you don't do it, your fired" and olney was in his office and everything. everything was the same. lol. it was so weird. i almost said something but he got made to do drive-thru. so my paycheck was wicked slim. i cashed it and then went to the bank and put 100 in my account. hopefulyl i dont touch it. although hollister sent me a thin that i can have $20 off of my next purchase. exciting huh? so hm... im going out with everyone later on. heatha doesn't get off work til 7:00. we might swing by the home game at milford. i dunno.
while i was filling out senior pictures it like finally hit me that im a freaking senior. i really am going to try hard to be extra nice this year...to everyone. like i will never see any of these people probably ever again...and that sucks. i mean my best friends will always be my best friends. i know we'll never drift apart..or i hope not. but i just hope all of my new friends and old/new friends stay better friend for our last year together.
its weird not hanging out with dave, rob, jeff, alex and kacey like EVERY weekend. i mean i dont care anymore about hanging out with cait since she screwed our friendship over a long time ago. its easy to forgive someone...but then again its not because i will never ever forget it. you cant trust people after they do sneaky crap to you...cause then your always going to question it. but i feel bad...me and dave are like not even friends anymore...and i know its deffinetly all my fault. i always screw stuff up. but hopefully if we eventually start hanging out again like all of us i can actually prove that im not that bad to hang out with or w.e...im just the jealous type of person...and sometimes i let stuff go to my head...i dont even think about what im saying i just say it cause i think its going to solve all problems. especially what i say to dave. stuff that i would never ever ever say. its so pathetic. and i know i said i wouldnt write about him anymore. for all you people sitting here thinking...omg like she hasnt written about him in 2 weeks and we were getting use to it. but no. i deserve this one. i even told him something the other night that i hadn't like told anyone and he just reacted to it like i didnt say anything...like he didnt care and thats when i realized that i ruined this friendship. something so important to me that I shared it with him and he just responds like "ok" it just really hurt but thats how it goes. well this is the last year i will probably ever see him. especially if he goes to florida and i dont want it to end with out us being on friend terms. and im making a promise to myself to fix this as best as i can and im going to. well so yeah. thats about it.
so aw man... lets see i think it was tuesday mr. sani had me in his office (his name is mr. sanicrouch but i cant spell so sani is fine) he had me in his office for like an hour and a half talking about colleges and financial aid and courses ive taken and courses im taking and sats. blah blah. it was interesting but i dunno. i want to go to Jacksonville University in FL but the change is so drastic that im not really sure if I could handle it. they have a wicked good program but i dunno if I could leave all my friends behind. so heres the colleges:
Northeastern.
Endicott.
Dartmouth.
Worcester State.
University Of Miami
Jacksonville University
Amherst
I think thats it... i dunno we got another college fair coming up so this might change...and most likely will change a bit...
well im going out...
♥amandabeth
so anyways then i came home talked online and went to bed.
Tuesday I woke up and went to school... I had to work which kinda sucked but w.e right. so then I found out some shit that raelly bothered me...then bed... pretty boring.
Wednesday it was a half day and me and chris went and bought cloves/cigars/ciggs. then we went to erins with heatha, aynsley, louis, me, chris, erin (of course) it was fuN! we ordered lotsa chinese and watched the girl next door good movie lol. then we had some shots. well i only had one. i dunno but i havent enjoyed drinking hard liquor in awhile. then everyone left but me and heatha...so we went to shaws and bought some stuff for erin to make cookies..it twas very fun. lol. so then i came home. went with my mom to get shampoo and conditioner for my hair. she was hungry so we got food. i just ate a salad. then I came home and showered. I GOT MY SENIOR PICTURES SO IF YOU WANT ONE LET ME KNOW=) they look awesome... im going to have pictures along with all my friends up monday if I find some time.
so then i got ready and went to bed...
thursday was alright. school was gay. came home. got ready. picked cat up. went to longhorns with kacey and rob and jeff. that was interesting. me and cat talked a lot. I asked her to come with me today though and she said she would...but I called her and she was going to get her sister from college. Its just the same even the Dereck left. not as bad. but w.e...shes going down to Florida next week. and at first she invited me with her but now shes like "oh if u can blah blah blah" it kinda hurts my feeling a little bit but w.e. i guess we've grown a part a little. then we went to the meeting. it was gay. then we went to the highschool cause cat needed to get her cell from alex. then i came home. my mom was like "were you smoking in the car...atleast smoke outside of the car next time cause im allergic to the smell" sorry. geez.
so then i chilled and went to bed.
so today I called cat and like i said she wasnt to interested in what i asked her yesterdday. go figure. so i went and got my paycheck at work. and a dream that i had a wicked long time ago was replayed today at work. jayson had green warrior paint on his face and his glasses and i was getting my paycheck and i had this thing stapled to it. i guess its a new test? and he recited the words from the dream "if you don't do it, your fired" and olney was in his office and everything. everything was the same. lol. it was so weird. i almost said something but he got made to do drive-thru. so my paycheck was wicked slim. i cashed it and then went to the bank and put 100 in my account. hopefulyl i dont touch it. although hollister sent me a thin that i can have $20 off of my next purchase. exciting huh? so hm... im going out with everyone later on. heatha doesn't get off work til 7:00. we might swing by the home game at milford. i dunno.
while i was filling out senior pictures it like finally hit me that im a freaking senior. i really am going to try hard to be extra nice this year...to everyone. like i will never see any of these people probably ever again...and that sucks. i mean my best friends will always be my best friends. i know we'll never drift apart..or i hope not. but i just hope all of my new friends and old/new friends stay better friend for our last year together.
its weird not hanging out with dave, rob, jeff, alex and kacey like EVERY weekend. i mean i dont care anymore about hanging out with cait since she screwed our friendship over a long time ago. its easy to forgive someone...but then again its not because i will never ever forget it. you cant trust people after they do sneaky crap to you...cause then your always going to question it. but i feel bad...me and dave are like not even friends anymore...and i know its deffinetly all my fault. i always screw stuff up. but hopefully if we eventually start hanging out again like all of us i can actually prove that im not that bad to hang out with or w.e...im just the jealous type of person...and sometimes i let stuff go to my head...i dont even think about what im saying i just say it cause i think its going to solve all problems. especially what i say to dave. stuff that i would never ever ever say. its so pathetic. and i know i said i wouldnt write about him anymore. for all you people sitting here thinking...omg like she hasnt written about him in 2 weeks and we were getting use to it. but no. i deserve this one. i even told him something the other night that i hadn't like told anyone and he just reacted to it like i didnt say anything...like he didnt care and thats when i realized that i ruined this friendship. something so important to me that I shared it with him and he just responds like "ok" it just really hurt but thats how it goes. well this is the last year i will probably ever see him. especially if he goes to florida and i dont want it to end with out us being on friend terms. and im making a promise to myself to fix this as best as i can and im going to. well so yeah. thats about it.
so aw man... lets see i think it was tuesday mr. sani had me in his office (his name is mr. sanicrouch but i cant spell so sani is fine) he had me in his office for like an hour and a half talking about colleges and financial aid and courses ive taken and courses im taking and sats. blah blah. it was interesting but i dunno. i want to go to Jacksonville University in FL but the change is so drastic that im not really sure if I could handle it. they have a wicked good program but i dunno if I could leave all my friends behind. so heres the colleges:
Northeastern.
Endicott.
Dartmouth.
Worcester State.
University Of Miami
Jacksonville University
Amherst
I think thats it... i dunno we got another college fair coming up so this might change...and most likely will change a bit...
well im going out...
♥amandabeth