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Andrew and I broke up for the final time. He just didn't feel the same anymore, so in the end it's whatever. I think this Friday were meeting up for the first time since almost two and half weeks ago for me to get my necklace and things I have at his place.
I just want Tiffany to be home right now; as mad as I am at her, I just want her to be home. I'm so over bad luck coming into my world, that I can't just take it anymore. If I had to go so far, intoxicated, to feel that I needed to end my life over all this confusion going on in my life; then things aren't right. I just want to feel safe, in a relationship but it seems that once I do and let them know, they bail. God damnit, I'm a victim of the worst possible thing in the entire world and to feel safe is the easiest thing to ask for when you meet a guy. I just want my Tiffany home. She is the only person who understands me and can make things better... the tears IU've cried going to sleep are just not healthy, and now I'm getting sick because I'm lacking sleep.. I just want to work, bust my ass and not think about him for 5-8 hours and I do so but once I get into my car, I look over to my passenger seat and see him all over again. Ugh.
This semester is very long... but it's coming out to be whatever I make it.
Hung out with the boys this weekend, well two of them and it was so awesome. I'll never go so much time without seeing them and last night Brian sent me a text message before I fell asleep; just saying Hi and whatnot. He always seems to bring a smile to my face when it's needed. Like he said on Saturday, things will Andrew were bound to not work out.. your a rebel Bree; he's the best kept secret. Your going places; he isn't. Your beautiful; he's a short weirdo. Take Brian's drunken words to make an impact. haha..
I just want Tiffany to be home right now; as mad as I am at her, I just want her to be home. I'm so over bad luck coming into my world, that I can't just take it anymore. If I had to go so far, intoxicated, to feel that I needed to end my life over all this confusion going on in my life; then things aren't right. I just want to feel safe, in a relationship but it seems that once I do and let them know, they bail. God damnit, I'm a victim of the worst possible thing in the entire world and to feel safe is the easiest thing to ask for when you meet a guy. I just want my Tiffany home. She is the only person who understands me and can make things better... the tears IU've cried going to sleep are just not healthy, and now I'm getting sick because I'm lacking sleep.. I just want to work, bust my ass and not think about him for 5-8 hours and I do so but once I get into my car, I look over to my passenger seat and see him all over again. Ugh.
This semester is very long... but it's coming out to be whatever I make it.
Hung out with the boys this weekend, well two of them and it was so awesome. I'll never go so much time without seeing them and last night Brian sent me a text message before I fell asleep; just saying Hi and whatnot. He always seems to bring a smile to my face when it's needed. Like he said on Saturday, things will Andrew were bound to not work out.. your a rebel Bree; he's the best kept secret. Your going places; he isn't. Your beautiful; he's a short weirdo. Take Brian's drunken words to make an impact. haha..