Not again
So it's the start of the end. All this talk about God and religion that I read between tetrakatus and unimom have put me in this faithless mood. This is odd because even though I am mostly Agnostic, I still have a faith that there is nothing out there. And again this has been proven by my inability to support life. Everyone says we can try again, but I think it's done. It's finished. There is no end in sight, so I will create one by myself. Am I relieved? Yes. And I disappointed? Yes. I can't explain how I feel in words, verbally or written. All I can think about is that it's done and if there was a God, he/she/it soul not have made this decision for me. It should have been my choice alone. But since I do not believe in an omnipotent he/she/it, then I much conclude that nature does not agree with me either. Either way, I cannot go through this emotional rollercoaster again. If I do, I'm afraid I won't make it to the end.