FIOF
While You Were Drinking
Seems like Nardo made it through the day at work, we were concerned about his ability to focus after going on a drunk on his day off.
Going downstairs to do the laundry I could smell booze in the air, possibly from the previous day's excursion, hopefully not a new development.
Worse than that, he is in a slump, he heard a transwoman friend committed suicide today.
She was only 22, ten years his junior. I think he found strength through her having common interests. What a bloody tragedy. It's not like dying of cancer where we have no choice, or old age when our time is up, this young man/lady took her life by choice or emptiness, or shame or pressure or depression or any number of negative or disconnected feelings.
This is not the time to ask about such things. Only to be here to console him in his grief. He's pretty emotional it seems and really is affected by losing friends in any way. Although there seem to be a trail of lost friends in his wake, most are still alive. This time it's different.
It seems he/she was another person at AA who stopped going, but was connected on FB. Whether he/she had any influence over them is unknown, maybe just an acquaintance with similar transgender intentions, not that Nardo was necessarily close to them, other than his emotions have revealed. He found out by text message from his neo-buddhist transgender sponsor, who rather should have said, "Where the fuck were you on Wednesday, buddy?" but that also would have been wrong thought/wrong action, and maybe wrong timing. All this he/she/it is getting confunsing. I hope he can work through this for himself, in a rational manner and sees the need to continue attending AA himself.
GF says when he was young, she had a dream that she would outlive him. That is every parent's nightmare. I've had those thoughts about my son when he was young. We tend to be protective of those we love and especially as parents. Although he was an unexpected child, she decided to keep him and raise him. She already had one abortion and probably that helped her to see the consequences in our psyche. We laugh at death until it comes visiting. And death can be a very sobering experience.
Maybe this might shock him into reality and give him some deep thought about what he is toying with.
Damn, that's no way to say goodbye...
Here then, is a recital to honour the loss of a loved one..
John Renbourn - Three Pieces By O'Carolan
Turlough O'Carolan (1670-1738) was a blind Gaelic harper, composer, and singer whose great fame is due to his gift for melodic composition.
dr. π (pi)
♫
enjoy!
.
Seems like Nardo made it through the day at work, we were concerned about his ability to focus after going on a drunk on his day off.
Going downstairs to do the laundry I could smell booze in the air, possibly from the previous day's excursion, hopefully not a new development.
Worse than that, he is in a slump, he heard a transwoman friend committed suicide today.
She was only 22, ten years his junior. I think he found strength through her having common interests. What a bloody tragedy. It's not like dying of cancer where we have no choice, or old age when our time is up, this young man/lady took her life by choice or emptiness, or shame or pressure or depression or any number of negative or disconnected feelings.
This is not the time to ask about such things. Only to be here to console him in his grief. He's pretty emotional it seems and really is affected by losing friends in any way. Although there seem to be a trail of lost friends in his wake, most are still alive. This time it's different.
It seems he/she was another person at AA who stopped going, but was connected on FB. Whether he/she had any influence over them is unknown, maybe just an acquaintance with similar transgender intentions, not that Nardo was necessarily close to them, other than his emotions have revealed. He found out by text message from his neo-buddhist transgender sponsor, who rather should have said, "Where the fuck were you on Wednesday, buddy?" but that also would have been wrong thought/wrong action, and maybe wrong timing. All this he/she/it is getting confunsing. I hope he can work through this for himself, in a rational manner and sees the need to continue attending AA himself.
GF says when he was young, she had a dream that she would outlive him. That is every parent's nightmare. I've had those thoughts about my son when he was young. We tend to be protective of those we love and especially as parents. Although he was an unexpected child, she decided to keep him and raise him. She already had one abortion and probably that helped her to see the consequences in our psyche. We laugh at death until it comes visiting. And death can be a very sobering experience.
Maybe this might shock him into reality and give him some deep thought about what he is toying with.
Damn, that's no way to say goodbye...
Here then, is a recital to honour the loss of a loved one..
John Renbourn - Three Pieces By O'Carolan
Click to viewTurlough O'Carolan (1670-1738) was a blind Gaelic harper, composer, and singer whose great fame is due to his gift for melodic composition.
dr. π (pi)
♫
enjoy!
.