shiiiiet
well...i'll be honest.......LIFE SUCKS RITE NOW. pretty much everything just got ruined b/c of one stupid mistake i made. god damn....i just feel like shooting myself. not taht i ever would but im just saying i just wanna curl up in a ball and go away. i NEVER thought id say this but i think im done for awhile. until things chill out and that wont be for a LOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGGGG ass time. yea...i fucked up...but i guess the only thing i can do is get back up and keep going. except i thought that was gonna be easier and now its geting all complicated. i just hope i dont get my bestfriends taken away b/c of this. and if u kno me good enough then u kno what im talking about. i dont realy wanna go back to church cuz i hate our church but rite now thats about the only thing i can do cuz i cant hang out with my friends from skool unless im at bball practice or our games....and i wont be playing for awhile. SHIT...i wish i could say i dont give a fuck anymore...but i do. cuz i love sports and i dont wanna mess that up anymore than i have for rite now. but im done. goodnite