venting about little things
Feeling a little negative today.... over seemingly insignificant, 1st world problems.
A little over a week ago, I commented on FB on a page related to The Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers. I said that after the 3 of the 5 original actors/actresses left the original show, I lost interest in it. Up to that point, I loved the show as a kid. After that, I didn't really watch much if any of the numerous iterations that followed.
Anyways, one guy responded to my post, saying that he doesn't just love those OG characters, but subsequent Power Rangers shows as well. Ok, that's fine. I have no problems with that.
But this other dude.... we got into a spat back and forth. He basically said the same thing what the 1st guy did, but in a more direct, personal, condescending way. Ofc, he would be all like, "I'm just stating facts. If you don't like it, that's your problem." It's like... goddamn, these types of people think they're so high and almighty. Sure, they may have a fair point. Sure, they may be logical and factual. But the FACT (yes, pun intended) that they have such a condescending attitude - even if they say they aren't - is what gets me steamed. This motherfucker was like, "You're not a real fan. You're the only one who's like this. It's your loss."
I mean, Jesus Fuckin' Christ. Give it a break. He just acts like he's all cool and smart and better than me. If he delivered his point like the 1st guy did, I'd have no problems. But the again, the fact that he just made it so goddamn personal even though he'd he he didn't..... yea, screw that asshole.
I actually reported his comments to FB, whom unfortunately didn't act. Ok, fine. But yeah, that guy is still an asshole.
Btw, 25 other people 'Liked" my original comment, and 6 people "Loved" it. Soo... I know I'm not the only one with that opinion.
I worry that this is just a sign of me being too insensitive/defensive over trivial stuff. I really wish I could've just brushed it off with a "Fuck you, whatever" attitude. And that's it. Don't let any assholes or bitches in the world bother me as much as they want to.
Sigh. Like I said, 1st world problems.
Fast forward today. I can't recall exactly how it initially happened. I was driving towards SJ on 101-S, and ofc there's heavy traffic. If I'm not mistaken, this car on my right tries to get into my lane and my car was in the way. There was no car crash or collision, thankfully. The other driver got back into his lane, and kept motioning for me to go forward. I returned the motion, and I was willing to just let him go and and that's it. Sure, I swore initially after the near-miss, but other than that, fine.
So I finally went past him.... and he got behind me and then got into the carpool lane which was on my left despite the fact that he wasn't carpooling with anyone. He lowered his passenger window which was closest to me.... tried to keep pace with my car. This guy - an Asian guy btw - was trying to look me in the eye and make it super super personal. I'm sure he was swearing at me. Over my music radio, I could faintly hear him honk a long time and yadyadya. I admit - I was pissed because he was trying to make it personal. And I confess, I was also scared. Does that make me sound like a man? B/c of the way he was acting out at me, I wanted to retaliate... maybe just a flip of the bird, at most. But I didn't do all that much other than look at him thru my shades and just did my best to drive on and ignore him. Ofc, he still kept acting like a grade-A asshole.
I was scared to fully retaliate b/c you don't what crazies are out there, even if he is what looked like to be a "fellow Asian". He might've had a gun. He might've tried to follow me all the way to my destination and hunt me down. And that's why I didn't act all asshole-y like he did as much as I wanted to.
A part of me feels proud that I didn't act as douchey as he did. I also feel relieved that that the situation didn't escalate. But also a part of me feels ashamed for being scared. I think it's because, I want to stand up for myself. But I'm not into physical violence unless absolutely necessary. Self-defense. Not starting or, god forbid, escalating confrontations.
Now, again, I'm not sure whose fault it was that started this whole thing of our cars nearly hitting. But again... me, I'd just soon let the whole thing go after my initial cuss-words reaction. I mean, this type of rush-hour shit happens all the time, every day, all over the state, the country, the world! To everyone! With that douchebag however... he just wanted to make it personal.
Because of the overblown way he acted towards me, I hope he gets his somehow via karma. Sorry, not sorry.