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[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[x] I own something from Hot Topic (Thanks to my ex...yah)
[ ] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse randomly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ x] I am a sports fanatic. (correction...VOLLEYBALL fanatic. Ah yes, and crew.)
[ ] I have one x in my screen name.
[ ] I have multiple x's in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an AIM word [lol, brb, etc.] in a real conversation.
[EW!] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills easily.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I have gotten lost in my city.
[x] I have seen a shooting star
[x] I have been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I have had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] Kissed a Stranger
[x ] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ x] Kicked a guy where it hurts (That asshole deserved it! And if you don't believe me, I'll tell you the story...)
[ x] Been close to love (Currently in love)
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x ] Broken a bone (My tailbone...)
[ ] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[ ] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[x ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x YEAH! ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[x] Been water skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet.
[ x] Been to a moto cross show
[ x] Lost a child
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x ] Taken painkillers
[ x] Had someone cheat on you
[x Very much so...] Miss someone right now
[ ] Eaten a stick of butter
BlaH!
Grad was pretty cool. I covered EVERYONE in confetti/glitter shit. Even people I didn't glitter intentionally, had glitter all over them, compliments of the wind. Had little horn-things..umm, Sitko sprayed me with the silly string, from head to toe. It took me 30 min. to get it out of my hair in the shower. Fun.
I miss school. A lot, actually. Knowing I won't be there Monday's just breakin' my heart. I don't know...Mixed feelings about all this shit. My 'love life' is down the drain, which is understandable...lol, I wouldn't date me either :-P haha Nah...but anyways, I'm almost excited for summer...because it means I get to GO AWAY FOR SEVEN WEEKS. Maybe I'll be able to sort myself out. I'm moving back into my house tomorrow morning. I've only seen my mom twice in the past month, and I was savoring the time away from the yelling and various other unpleasent things I dare not speak of here. I'm poolhall hopping tonight. Haven't played pool in a long time, but hey...Drinks will be provided by Ana's wonderful boyfriend. Too bad I bitched her out, because she knows I refuse to drink...and the fact that she knows EXACTLY why, and still insists on putting me in that situation, bothers me slightly...
Another thing...She's trying so hard to grow up so fast. I guess we all are, but sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who takes the time to notice it. It seems like I am...but I don't know...I really, really wish I could erase everything after the age of 4, so
I could start all over again, only keeping my sense of judgement, so I know when to walk away from a situation, or know when to tell someone of authority when guys are being...well, guys. There are so many things only I know, and so many things I can't say in fear of it somehow getting back to my folks. Having no one to talk to (and yes, no one includes my best friend) makes everything seem so lonely. The only people I've ever confided in, left me for someone else or couldn't handle my problems even when all I needed was a hug and a kiss on the forehead..and they only knew a small fraction of my life's story, which would be the small fraction I shared in English Class. It's not pity I ask for, nor 'love'...just try and understand, and don't leave me in the dust because you don't want to 'waste' your energy on helping me, because it's not help I'm looking for either. Just a hug, a kiss on the forehead and two ears.
And now...after a year spent in a community where everyone's your friend, but no one ever stops to ask why you're laughing so obnoxiously to hide the pain. Where no one ever asks are you okay, while meaning it and actually wanting to hear what you have to say...then be willing to hug you, or pat you on the back after. Watkinson has been my 'hide-away' from my real world, and honestly...I'd like to thank everyone for not caring, because sometimes it's the things you don't say, that puts life in perspective. I'm not even sure I do wanna go back next year. I'm just digging myself a hole, in a whole nother world that isn't even mine. It belongs to the kids who make it theirs, but so far...all I've done is let it do nothing more than blanket me...I have yet to accept it as my own, knowing full well I could be gone the next day..and also knowing, no one honestly gives a damn.
And it'd take a lot to convince me they do, because so far...it's just my lonely safe-house, away from 'home'.
Yeah...don't ask where all that came from. This just sucks.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[x] I own something from Hot Topic (Thanks to my ex...yah)
[ ] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse randomly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ x] I am a sports fanatic. (correction...VOLLEYBALL fanatic. Ah yes, and crew.)
[ ] I have one x in my screen name.
[ ] I have multiple x's in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an AIM word [lol, brb, etc.] in a real conversation.
[EW!] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills easily.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I have gotten lost in my city.
[x] I have seen a shooting star
[x] I have been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I have had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] Kissed a Stranger
[x ] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ x] Kicked a guy where it hurts (That asshole deserved it! And if you don't believe me, I'll tell you the story...)
[ x] Been close to love (Currently in love)
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x ] Broken a bone (My tailbone...)
[ ] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[ ] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[x ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x YEAH! ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[x] Been water skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet.
[ x] Been to a moto cross show
[ x] Lost a child
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x ] Taken painkillers
[ x] Had someone cheat on you
[x Very much so...] Miss someone right now
[ ] Eaten a stick of butter
BlaH!
Grad was pretty cool. I covered EVERYONE in confetti/glitter shit. Even people I didn't glitter intentionally, had glitter all over them, compliments of the wind. Had little horn-things..umm, Sitko sprayed me with the silly string, from head to toe. It took me 30 min. to get it out of my hair in the shower. Fun.
I miss school. A lot, actually. Knowing I won't be there Monday's just breakin' my heart. I don't know...Mixed feelings about all this shit. My 'love life' is down the drain, which is understandable...lol, I wouldn't date me either :-P haha Nah...but anyways, I'm almost excited for summer...because it means I get to GO AWAY FOR SEVEN WEEKS. Maybe I'll be able to sort myself out. I'm moving back into my house tomorrow morning. I've only seen my mom twice in the past month, and I was savoring the time away from the yelling and various other unpleasent things I dare not speak of here. I'm poolhall hopping tonight. Haven't played pool in a long time, but hey...Drinks will be provided by Ana's wonderful boyfriend. Too bad I bitched her out, because she knows I refuse to drink...and the fact that she knows EXACTLY why, and still insists on putting me in that situation, bothers me slightly...
Another thing...She's trying so hard to grow up so fast. I guess we all are, but sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who takes the time to notice it. It seems like I am...but I don't know...I really, really wish I could erase everything after the age of 4, so
I could start all over again, only keeping my sense of judgement, so I know when to walk away from a situation, or know when to tell someone of authority when guys are being...well, guys. There are so many things only I know, and so many things I can't say in fear of it somehow getting back to my folks. Having no one to talk to (and yes, no one includes my best friend) makes everything seem so lonely. The only people I've ever confided in, left me for someone else or couldn't handle my problems even when all I needed was a hug and a kiss on the forehead..and they only knew a small fraction of my life's story, which would be the small fraction I shared in English Class. It's not pity I ask for, nor 'love'...just try and understand, and don't leave me in the dust because you don't want to 'waste' your energy on helping me, because it's not help I'm looking for either. Just a hug, a kiss on the forehead and two ears.
And now...after a year spent in a community where everyone's your friend, but no one ever stops to ask why you're laughing so obnoxiously to hide the pain. Where no one ever asks are you okay, while meaning it and actually wanting to hear what you have to say...then be willing to hug you, or pat you on the back after. Watkinson has been my 'hide-away' from my real world, and honestly...I'd like to thank everyone for not caring, because sometimes it's the things you don't say, that puts life in perspective. I'm not even sure I do wanna go back next year. I'm just digging myself a hole, in a whole nother world that isn't even mine. It belongs to the kids who make it theirs, but so far...all I've done is let it do nothing more than blanket me...I have yet to accept it as my own, knowing full well I could be gone the next day..and also knowing, no one honestly gives a damn.
And it'd take a lot to convince me they do, because so far...it's just my lonely safe-house, away from 'home'.
Yeah...don't ask where all that came from. This just sucks.