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1: And why is it that I'm so happy now? Is it the day that I spent restoring the status quo with my friend's sis? Was it the anxiety later? Or is it 4 completed delivery trips, allowing me to collect 80 units of local currency. Enought to get piss drunk off vodka with 4 friends, off wine with2 and off congnac with just one. Hehe) I dunno and to be honest, I'm not looking for a reason. Hey, what's taht buzzing in my ear? I feel alive in the big city more than anywhere. On another note, i bought half a kilo of tomatoes and some bread. Imma eat some....
2: Its really tough for me, but at least now, I ahve the courage to stand up and feel it. My secret is that its very hard for me at times, when i feel like dying. Might as well, while I'm still young and have the courage....But really, having these feeelings is one of the most meaningful of my life's phenomenons. And why is it so easier to actually do it when I'm away from home....Despite everything little by llittle I'm regaining that harmony.
Why is a pretty but pointless question. Life just has its way around us. Hello, world.....
3: enough enough, keep it real, keep it tight, what you think is a matter of opinion, but what you feel is a matter of trust in your own self. i have fooled myself one too many times, i have lived the life of illusion to the fullest and do i not feel sorry for every single failure, every single success. when you cant rely on anything in this life, you do rely on the intangible and that intangible is my life. the life i do not fear to loose, sometimes want to go, but other times 2 happy, 2 open, 2 me, wearing masks like a pro, telling lies where i must, my sins i bear, but also do i bear the vibes of the universe in my heart....i know what i do best in life, my XXL dramatic....my life....and i will pursue that....for you genuinely interested out there, i can tell one thing, only that person achieves a true high, whose intentions are pure and stem not from the ego or the love for success or power or cash for that matter. we build a new world, every day and in that you have my shoulder to lean on, where you need it the most....
2: Its really tough for me, but at least now, I ahve the courage to stand up and feel it. My secret is that its very hard for me at times, when i feel like dying. Might as well, while I'm still young and have the courage....But really, having these feeelings is one of the most meaningful of my life's phenomenons. And why is it so easier to actually do it when I'm away from home....Despite everything little by llittle I'm regaining that harmony.
Why is a pretty but pointless question. Life just has its way around us. Hello, world.....
3: enough enough, keep it real, keep it tight, what you think is a matter of opinion, but what you feel is a matter of trust in your own self. i have fooled myself one too many times, i have lived the life of illusion to the fullest and do i not feel sorry for every single failure, every single success. when you cant rely on anything in this life, you do rely on the intangible and that intangible is my life. the life i do not fear to loose, sometimes want to go, but other times 2 happy, 2 open, 2 me, wearing masks like a pro, telling lies where i must, my sins i bear, but also do i bear the vibes of the universe in my heart....i know what i do best in life, my XXL dramatic....my life....and i will pursue that....for you genuinely interested out there, i can tell one thing, only that person achieves a true high, whose intentions are pure and stem not from the ego or the love for success or power or cash for that matter. we build a new world, every day and in that you have my shoulder to lean on, where you need it the most....