i think i will cry myself to sleep!
yeah so today fucking sucked woodshop sucks a nut!!...then after school i went and played pool which i fucking sucked at!...and me and janet didn't get to hang out that long...i feel bad cuz kellen bought me dinner and we went crusing for a while and hung out, well sam called me and said u know lets talk and stuff ....well when u like someone so much thats what u do...gosh i feel so dumb i'm sitting here crying my eyes out!...i already messed up with freddy this summer and i don't wanna again!!...freddy came and got me from sams house and was mad cuz i "ditched" kellen i'm such a bad friend...but what hurt me the most is freddy telling me what i did wrong!!....i think i will cry my self to sleep!! u know when u get out of high school i'm gonna thing to myself thoughs tiers were worth nothing!!...and i have no idea y i am i guess i just don't want me and sam to go out again and me get hurt again as bad as i did ya know?...man this sucks!!!..he was actually nice to me!...everyone is mad cuz i did that to kellen wtf i'm so stupid!!...i wanna run away and never come back to this gay ass fucking town!!....i've been such a bitch to christa....damb i'm sry babe!...i feel bad too...sry!!!...i am a bitch what the fuck i'm i saying...jeez i need to stop being such a i guess u could say stuck up lil bitch!!..i'm only hurting my self, and others around me!!...i'm sry for the people i have been a bitch to..!!...i mean i dunno but most of u have been somewhat in love and should know i guess!..right?....i don't know if i'm falling in love...or what but if i am i hope i'm making the right choice the way it looks i'm not...i like that kid so much i would do n e thing!!...as u can tell!!...i swear i'm so sick of myself!!...i just wanna get my home work done and go to fucking sleep!!..and not think about what i bad friend/ girlfriend i am..P.S kellen sry for being a fucking???..... how can i say it...BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH!!!ya thats it theres more but ya later....
always,
..... i don't know ne more!!
always,
..... i don't know ne more!!