freaking awesome...
yeah so today was the freakin shit!!....i love my scedual its freakin awesome!yeah 3rd auto shop me and savannah kinda left it was hella fun! i always thought she didn't like me but i guess were over some things which is awesome to know!...today i went to lunch with hearther, kayla, courntey, ashlie, and jordan..it was so fucking fun..we went and had pizza!!...it was the greatest time every!..i think this was the funnest day i've had in a long ass time.. i love my cousin ashlie! yeah i had fun, even tho sam said mean ass things to me that wasn't every nice at all:(!!!...yeah so after school janet came and got me, we went to the blowing ally, but she left like at 4:00 so i stayed there with jeff and levi we played some guys that i didn't really know, but there pretty cool...i played pool so fucking awesome!!i was all sorts of exited!!...yeah then andy showed up and played with us...all i can say is my day was pretty awesome..oh and when i went to the bowl i seen candi there and i met her grams...shes rad!! i talked to nikki and told her, her poem made me and tiffany cry! but wtf tim wasn't even talking to me at the bowl it made me sad! i love tim!...AND whats up with drunk people!..gosh i hate them expeculy if ur gonna be mean to someone u like!!..janet picked me up from the bowl at like 7:00 she let me drive for like 2 hours it was fucking awesome!!..like and hour that we were cruising louie and marco's needed a ride so we went and got them and i talked to louie about sam and asked him why the fuck he broke up with me...i love louie..even he said i was good to sam...but oh well,!!...but w/e...another thing that mad me so freakin mad was when me and sam were going out he was going out with this chick brooke that he was going out with in reno...so i was even more sad...all i am is sad ne more the only one that can make me happy is janet cuz she tells me how it is...and she is someone i can really talk to and i love her for that!...oh well i'm a strong chick!..well hopefully right!!all i am is a freakin girl, for guys to pretend they like....gosh i'm so pissed sam had know fucking reason to brake up with me...well i told him i wouldn't have sex for a long ass time maybe thats y never know but i will stay i virgin for a long ass time!... dude guys r so freakin lame...god damit it!...this was his reason "u didn't come see me"...i was like wtf u can ask n e one i went and seen that kid every fucking night! i would stay there till like 2:00 in the morning just to see him...i think i'm to nice to him thats my prb....but he can have brooke cuz she's annoying n e ways!...and i guess she's not that pretty n e ways...well so am i but oh well...and i was talking to my chick friends at lunch and they said there is know reason to cry over someone like him..and i guess there right..but i mean its so hard...i have no idea y i like him so much...i guess i'm a dumb ass!! i hope louie talks to him and sees wtf is going on!!...i think we might hang out with louie this weekend or something...i see that kid as as lil kid but he's like 14 too its so weird!..but i hope they had fun tonight!...gosh i miss janet she is having prb too..gosh i think girls r never happy!..theres always something wrong.. well i guess if guys wern't such pricks then we wouldn't be right?...i seen this chick and some guy they were so cute and it makes me think y can't my relationships be like that...it made me think is it always me or is it just the dumb ass guys i go out with..gosh i'm such a bad friend to!!..i think i should just run away and never come back...it sounds good right?.. but it wouldn't be as good as i think it would be...Ooh and this weekend...wtf do i not have real friend wtf r u fake!..i thought u were a fucking friend...i guess i can't tell u ne thing!!...u try telling them i did something else shit i told sam what i did! which was nothing did i drink this weekend fuck know!...did i cheat on him...hell know...yeah so there was nothing but oh well i guess as life goes on, i start to reailize who my real friends r and thats like only two people..and lani is one of them...i love that chick to!..shes so rad!...lani we should do something this weekend!..if u wanna...i think bryan hates me for like know reason but w/e i'm over it...gosh i'm sick of friends being so fake...and at the bowling ally....yeah this seems like i didn't have fun but i really did lol..but n e ways...you, YES YOU, u said stuff to me for like know reason just because i said something one the phone which was true... u got mad i mean i guess i could see but u shouldn't have did it the first place...but w/e its ur life...gosh damit i miss sam!! i hate this...oh well i give up!...i hope tomorrow sam at least talks to me....lol fat chance i best not get my hopes up right?....yeah so i was talking to kellen and i had asked him if he will ever for give me and he said it would take a long time till he does and i understand...if he did that to me to for give him i would say "hell know and never to talk to me again"!.. i guess sense he's such a nice guy he still talks to me....*shawn* my love j/k but yeah ur an awesome kid... yeah this journal is kinda gay but w/e i'm bored!! yeah so i hope tomorrow is fun!...well see ya!
always,
*ME*
always,
*ME*