i'm finally starting to realize...
i want things to be the way they used to be... when i wasn't worried about things going on in my life, when i was just living and enjoying what life had to offer, and everything just seemed to feel right. there's nothing like the novelty of new, and since it's impossible to feel like you do when you do something for the first time, the only thing you can do is learn to appreciate everything just the same. some people search for more and are always wanting, others learn to appreciate what they have and settle for that. i think i fall somewhere in the middle... i'm easy to please and appreciate all i am given, but at the same time realize that i can't just limit myself to that, because life actually has more to offer. one major lesson that i am slowly learning is that rather than spending my entire life here on this earth trying to figure things out, i should just enjoy the ride for the time that i am here. there's nothing that says there's a meaning to life or that it even has to have one; it's those who try to make it that way who are the unhappiest.