some writing about my day the otherday
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Man I am beginning to slip into a big depression again. I can’t take the yelling and shit around her I knew it was going to be this way when jets son got here. Just like it was yelling and people are on edge all the time because of the stress he causes
The son of a bitch was dumb enough to bring pot to school and was expelled from school and Jeff thus far has only had a stern talking with him. Man my dad would have beat my ass. Only Jeff doesn’t think that works instead he lets him arguer with him till Jeff is too stressed out to deal with it then people act like nothing happened cause it is easier to just pretend it never happened then to actually deal with the problem
Mom tonight again mentioned me getting back on the road and I told her yet again I was not going back on the road. I mean it I want to get back into school and loose weight. I don’t think she thinks I am serious. Man I need to do something positive to cancel this downward spiral I am going through.
Dave and mom had a big fight tonight and she came unglued on him.
She was yelling at him for everything about what I did wrong witch was not doing dishes cause of Fletcher saying he was going to do them. And Jeff to getting his license and all kinds of shit. Although she does have a point David is flunking out of school and no she shouldn’t go get his d. l. till he is doing better in his studies.
I feel like I am a failure and every attempt to improve myself goes unnoticed and unsuccessful. I don’t know what to do. Mom can’t see that I don’t want to be her cause I want to live off her I want to be here because I have never been able to be around her on a regular basis. I never got to know her. So yea it’s time for me to get out and be on my own but you know what I don’t want to I still want to be with my mom because I never got to as a kid. I never got to be with my brother. I don’t really know him and he doesn’t know me. But I hope all that changes...
I don’t know I am buzzing now I got up so I could drink some wine and fall asleep and I think it is working.
Man I am beginning to slip into a big depression again. I can’t take the yelling and shit around her I knew it was going to be this way when jets son got here. Just like it was yelling and people are on edge all the time because of the stress he causes
The son of a bitch was dumb enough to bring pot to school and was expelled from school and Jeff thus far has only had a stern talking with him. Man my dad would have beat my ass. Only Jeff doesn’t think that works instead he lets him arguer with him till Jeff is too stressed out to deal with it then people act like nothing happened cause it is easier to just pretend it never happened then to actually deal with the problem
Mom tonight again mentioned me getting back on the road and I told her yet again I was not going back on the road. I mean it I want to get back into school and loose weight. I don’t think she thinks I am serious. Man I need to do something positive to cancel this downward spiral I am going through.
Dave and mom had a big fight tonight and she came unglued on him.
She was yelling at him for everything about what I did wrong witch was not doing dishes cause of Fletcher saying he was going to do them. And Jeff to getting his license and all kinds of shit. Although she does have a point David is flunking out of school and no she shouldn’t go get his d. l. till he is doing better in his studies.
I feel like I am a failure and every attempt to improve myself goes unnoticed and unsuccessful. I don’t know what to do. Mom can’t see that I don’t want to be her cause I want to live off her I want to be here because I have never been able to be around her on a regular basis. I never got to know her. So yea it’s time for me to get out and be on my own but you know what I don’t want to I still want to be with my mom because I never got to as a kid. I never got to be with my brother. I don’t really know him and he doesn’t know me. But I hope all that changes...
I don’t know I am buzzing now I got up so I could drink some wine and fall asleep and I think it is working.