ever wonder about good and evil
man last night was a pretty o.k night sleep.
i have alot onmy mind right now and the stress is taking it's toll.
i can tell when i am stressed out becasue my tounge starts doing this fu ny thing.
at night i guess i press my tounge up against my teeth hard and it starts to rub skin off some times to the point that it hurts to eat certain foods but not this time. now it just looks funky.
i am not a person who deals with change very well and i am changing jobs.
i worry bout what peoplethink about htat but i am really commited to trying to better my self as a whole and the jobi was doing ( truck driving) would stop that from being a possibility)
goals for bettering myself are...
loose weight( i gained 60 pounds driving in 6 months)
only eating 1 meal a day mind you so yea you can see the delima there
Go to school(sat test date is march 27 or may 1 i think i am going to do teh may 1rst)
i really want to get back into school
i can't be someone who nevr went past a h.s education not with my smarts
not to sound full of myself but it's true althouh my spelling doesn't reflect it.
and then the other stresses are just me...
not having a car needing to find a job does mom really want me here stuff like that
am i ever going to find someone..
man i don't know...
i am still freaked out about my last night mare i had and i don't have them often but when i do they are reall friggin demonic... i should start readign my bible more..
i have alot onmy mind right now and the stress is taking it's toll.
i can tell when i am stressed out becasue my tounge starts doing this fu ny thing.
at night i guess i press my tounge up against my teeth hard and it starts to rub skin off some times to the point that it hurts to eat certain foods but not this time. now it just looks funky.
i am not a person who deals with change very well and i am changing jobs.
i worry bout what peoplethink about htat but i am really commited to trying to better my self as a whole and the jobi was doing ( truck driving) would stop that from being a possibility)
goals for bettering myself are...
loose weight( i gained 60 pounds driving in 6 months)
only eating 1 meal a day mind you so yea you can see the delima there
Go to school(sat test date is march 27 or may 1 i think i am going to do teh may 1rst)
i really want to get back into school
i can't be someone who nevr went past a h.s education not with my smarts
not to sound full of myself but it's true althouh my spelling doesn't reflect it.
and then the other stresses are just me...
not having a car needing to find a job does mom really want me here stuff like that
am i ever going to find someone..
man i don't know...
i am still freaked out about my last night mare i had and i don't have them often but when i do they are reall friggin demonic... i should start readign my bible more..