Inhale Exhale annialate
I feel like I'm suffocating. I don't understand why the mention of how much help I've been for him didn't come though, instead only grouping with the other ex girlfriend in the complaint that two ex's were messing with his head.
That's hurtful, since I'm hardly trying to mess with his head, merely giving him the best regime I can think of for healing, and that is in fact love. Something I have so much of for him, but he refuses it like a tired hungry baby.
Seeing you in pain is hard enough, seeing you how you were when I left you makes it even worse... all these years of putting myself through all those hard trials as punishment and I just walk into this like I haven't had enough. I'm a glutton for you, it doesn't matter. The pain will stop eventually if I just hold strong and prove this to you. No matter what you do so long as I prove this to you perhaps then I can release... Some how some way. All's that I know right now is that I have to get you better. I owe you this at least, to make you better. I apologize for doing anything that may have fucked with your head, I had the best of intentions.. I must have let my emotions take over at some point and that was rude of me, this is no time for that, and again I apologize.
I want to escape because I fear that I'm making it worse but I stay because I know that's the mistake I made last time, but watching you suffer... I didn't know I was this strong... I don't think you realize how strong I'm being...
I'm sorry.
I'll find my way on my own, after I help you get back to your way... This is what I was put here to do... take care.
I'm going to pull back and go down to the essentials of taking care of you, I'll hold back the extras like the kissing and the hugging unless you reach for it.. I wont do this to you any longer. I'll give you just the thing's you need or ask for and stay out of your way to let you come to this yourself, and then I'll just fade back into thing's as your friend and you wont owe me anything except for trying to stay happy... I hope you don't take this the wrong way... I'm doing this to make it easier for you...
Again, I'm sorry.
That's hurtful, since I'm hardly trying to mess with his head, merely giving him the best regime I can think of for healing, and that is in fact love. Something I have so much of for him, but he refuses it like a tired hungry baby.
Seeing you in pain is hard enough, seeing you how you were when I left you makes it even worse... all these years of putting myself through all those hard trials as punishment and I just walk into this like I haven't had enough. I'm a glutton for you, it doesn't matter. The pain will stop eventually if I just hold strong and prove this to you. No matter what you do so long as I prove this to you perhaps then I can release... Some how some way. All's that I know right now is that I have to get you better. I owe you this at least, to make you better. I apologize for doing anything that may have fucked with your head, I had the best of intentions.. I must have let my emotions take over at some point and that was rude of me, this is no time for that, and again I apologize.
I want to escape because I fear that I'm making it worse but I stay because I know that's the mistake I made last time, but watching you suffer... I didn't know I was this strong... I don't think you realize how strong I'm being...
I'm sorry.
I'll find my way on my own, after I help you get back to your way... This is what I was put here to do... take care.
I'm going to pull back and go down to the essentials of taking care of you, I'll hold back the extras like the kissing and the hugging unless you reach for it.. I wont do this to you any longer. I'll give you just the thing's you need or ask for and stay out of your way to let you come to this yourself, and then I'll just fade back into thing's as your friend and you wont owe me anything except for trying to stay happy... I hope you don't take this the wrong way... I'm doing this to make it easier for you...
Again, I'm sorry.