Girl will never get it right
There is no doubt in my mind that the way I go about thing's is in fact insane, and or away from the normal. However I have faith that I'm quirky enough to make my way's work and flow in harmony with those lives around me.
Perhaps this is the idealism in me... or the dreamer, isn't it all the same? "When I wake up I poison myself....whatever I fear the most is whatever I see before me.."
There's self destruction dancing around me but I don't fear it so long as I'm watching it. Like I'm making some difference, like it could all go spinning out of control if I look away. Or maybe it's worse because I'm watching. Perhaps my eyes are instigating situations that could actually be avoided were I absent.
I have all these feeling's and all these ideas. I see what he's doing and he's sabotaging on purpose, I could make this better but he wont let that happen, that's just typical. I've been there and so has so many other people. Human nature is a bitch.
I feel the stabs. He just keeps putting the knife in and twisting, I wonder what his aim is. I'm too strong, he can't beat this. I'm determined. I see his dependencies, the thing's he's replaced and how it's all coding the destruction in his life. I see the lies surrounding his eyes, if only he would clear the fog away and step back into reality... a shared reality... not an isolated hell...
I'm holding my hand out to cold air.... I'm surprised how well I'm taking this... this is how I know.. I should.
Perhaps this is the idealism in me... or the dreamer, isn't it all the same? "When I wake up I poison myself....whatever I fear the most is whatever I see before me.."
There's self destruction dancing around me but I don't fear it so long as I'm watching it. Like I'm making some difference, like it could all go spinning out of control if I look away. Or maybe it's worse because I'm watching. Perhaps my eyes are instigating situations that could actually be avoided were I absent.
I have all these feeling's and all these ideas. I see what he's doing and he's sabotaging on purpose, I could make this better but he wont let that happen, that's just typical. I've been there and so has so many other people. Human nature is a bitch.
I feel the stabs. He just keeps putting the knife in and twisting, I wonder what his aim is. I'm too strong, he can't beat this. I'm determined. I see his dependencies, the thing's he's replaced and how it's all coding the destruction in his life. I see the lies surrounding his eyes, if only he would clear the fog away and step back into reality... a shared reality... not an isolated hell...
I'm holding my hand out to cold air.... I'm surprised how well I'm taking this... this is how I know.. I should.